Dying Eventually

Listening to my favourite Internet guru, quite clearly

this works for many people as they repeat the jargon

flawlessly and I wish I could get into the same frame

of mind - unfortunately - something within me needs

to feel sad for no reason at all; I listen when the guru
 

Explains nobody needs to understand us for living a

happy life, so I stopped communicating as it seemed

redundant & today everything seems to be redundant

in the extreme; not communicating - FEELING is the

way to go - heck - FEELING is not working for me - I

 

Feel a headache coming on everyday - some kind of

intervention required to fix this medical situation; why

do I always feel ill - according to the guru it’s because

I introduce RESISTANCE to the free-flowing current

of pure, positive energy - what I desire above all is

To become that pure, positive energy - which I can  

only do by dying eventually…

 

Fine-Tune His Scam

Finally some fun, a phishing expedition launched by a

solemn voice on my cell-phone, telling me that he, well-

wisher and altruist, stopped a transaction on my credit

card - I’m waiting with morbid curiosity to hear what

information he requires for his fraudulent transactions;

but I’m playing with fire - this criminal might get me to

divulge information against my better judgement, so I

ring off wondering what code he needed to separate me

from the funds in my credit card, whether he already had

my card number and just needed to fine-tune his scam

 

But it’s a fool’s game and I happily see on line that the

scammer did not take any money - now I’ll never know

how he reacted to being foiled like this: did he shout &

curse or simply called his next victim - and where did

he get my details, why did he think me an idiot telling

me to visit my bank the next day, as everybody knows

credit card transactions are only done by phone - what

a pity that my morbid fascination with criminals could

not be given free rein as it would lead to financial loss

which I can ill afford…

Stream Carrying Me Into Nothingness

I grew up with the mistaken belief only painful life

is meaningful, that living carefree and happy was

sinful & senseless - only struggling and suffering

would make us worthy - and it is so wrong at so

 

Many levels as it is obviously true that everyone

strives to live as long as possible, except for the

few who commit suicide: why would most people

prefer living to death if life were truly dedicated to

 

Sadness and pain - since pain & disappointment

go hand in hand, it’s logical that anything I do has

to fail for my life to have meaning: this sabotaging

myself has led to me taking great care to fail at

 

Most everything - success implies loss of meaning,

when success was achieved inadvertently, I felt so

worried and guilty; but this is no way to live - being

told within Calvinist tradition that we have all been

 

Conceived & born in sin, stopped me in my tracks

before I could take any steps towards success - &

the constant war at home; Mom blaming Grandma

Alice for the family going bankrupt & Dad blaming

 

Both of them for his losing everything, which is true;

he did lose everything he worked for, at least he did

retain his five privileged kids healthy & thriving - but

continuous war at home convinced me that only a

 

Feeling of war is proof of life & passion - thus I can

never be content in a calm and loving environment,

so I am condemned to a life of strife since it is the

only template that makes sense of life - but today

 

I realise the spiritualist claim that “Life is a game of

consciousness, in which all living things relish the

feeling of being alive versus nothingness, in which

challenge is exciting & adventure gives spice to life”

 

Is true as it explains everything - yet I remain stuck

in the feeling of the meaninglessness of life - I can’t

get out of the stream carrying me into nothingness...

Homo Ignoramus II

We don’t know whether other planets have life on

them and whether the life-forms  are like those on

earth - & we don’t not know how the solar system

came into being, although we have built up many

hypotheses about it; we suppose the solar system

started billions of years ago & claim it must be so  

 

We can’t explain mysterious gravitation, we don’t

know how mountains came into existence or how

the continents were formed, though we make up

many hypotheses about all these; we don’t know 

where oil came from - but we sell hypotheses to

each other like so much snake oil - we don’t know

 

Why a thick glacial sheet covered most of Europe

and North America as we believe it did; nor do we

know why the same fauna appear in both the Old

and New World, and we don’t know where the salt

in the sea came from, and mankind believes it has

lived on this planet for millions of years, yet there

 

Is a recorded history of only a few thousand years -

while questions abound - why did the Bronze Age

precede the Iron Age when iron is widely distributed

over the world and its manufacture is simpler than

the alloy of copper and tin - how were the immense

block structures built on the high mountains of the

 

Andes - and what caused the legend of the Flood

to appear in all the countries of the world - what

does "antediluvian" mean; where did the idea of

the end of the world originate? 

Homo Ignoramus I

I love the theory of Homo Ignoramus: We don’t know

what life is or how life came to be, and nobody knows

whether life originated from inorganic matter - which  

sounds highly suspicious to all the thinking, rational

creatures who have never seen evidence of creation

 

Taking place without a plan made first - and the idea

that consciousness existed before anything else could

come into existence, thus 'the theory of spontaneous

explosion of physical matter - leading to spontaneous

existence of intelligence', sounds so illogical; whereas

 

Assuming that non-physical consciousness came first

and this intelligence is independent of belief & service

by acolytes, makes 100 per cent more sense - but so

afraid are the superstitious modern atheists of anyone

realising that morality is independent from religion and

 

Creates a better world, that they try to indoctrinate

everyone to believe that the universe exists without

consciousness and awareness, therefore being only

a magical occurrence without meaning or purpose -

except the need for wealth, power and suppression

 

So they relentlessly persecute all who research a

different theory, and though they glory in quantum

theory as an example of mindless being, it actually

creates room for every alternative theory imagination

can create and explain - therefore there is reason to

 

Rejoice as Freedom and Spiritualism is alive and

kicking - and will be forevermore!

Visiting With Mother Superior

Having absurd conversations about solving problems is fun!

Although there are general problems, personally we can't 

complain about anything in our little lives in our little corner 

in the world, and we live very happily...

Brahms' Lullaby - Wiegenlied

I thought a melody by Brahms would be a better choice,

but instead of listening to his Wiegenlied, a lovely lullaby

 

I managed to find his Ein Deutsches Requiem - Ihr Habt

Nun Traurigkeit - & sadly I listened - then looked at the

 

*Translation finding that the music contains a promise for

the listeners to be comforted as if by their mother - and

 

That is exactly what is described in Brahms Lullaby, so

going to his Wiegenlied, I found the comfort I sought…

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https://youtu.be/_N8L0-f7E0M “Ihr habt nun Traurigkeit” (Ein Deutsches Requiem) 

Brahms [Barbara Bonney]

*Translation: Now now you have sorrow, but I will see you again,

and your heart shall rejoice, and your joy no man shall take from

you, I will comfort you like one who is comforted by his mother.

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https://youtu.be/Q2zAXfhcnTA  Wiegenlied: Guten Abend, gute Nacht -

Brahms  [Esther Valentin] 

Guten Abend, gute Nacht, mit Rosen bedacht,

mit Näglein besteckt, schlüpf unter die Deck!

Morgen früh, wenn Gott will, wirst du wieder geweckt.

 

Guten Abend, gute Nacht, von Englein bewacht,

die zeigen im Traum dir Christkindleins Baum.

Schlaf nun selig und süß, schau im Traum 's Paradies.

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= Wiegeliedjie (Slaap, my kindjie,  slaap sag)  

 [Woorde: JAN F.E. CELLIERS Musiek: JOHANNES BRAHMS; Op. 49 nr. 4]

Slaap, my kindjie, slaap sag, onder rose vannag

Eers die armpies om my nek en dan warmpies toegedek

môre vroeg, as God wil, word my kindjie gewek (2X).

 

Slaap, my kindjie, slaap sag, onder eng'le se wag;

hulle toon jou in 'n droom kindjie Jesus se boom

Slaap nou soet, hulle wys jou 'n droomparadys (2X).