Love You Dad

Anxiety, a mental state without explanation, poisons

the beauty of life and leads to a never-ending quest

for relief: at night I recount my blessings, the safety

and well-being which led human beings to colonise

the earth, yet every day a dark shadow fills my eye;

why was I born with this feeling of foreboding – why

Does feeling well require so much work? I dare not

relax and let my mind go - the infestation of weeds

and pests happens naturally and I have to fight it all

the time, it requires focus and vigilance to keep from

despair about just being alive - which is the biggest

privilege that was poisoned by I don’t know what –

Though I know my father had to go - he was old and

had no energy left - when I hear his music, the songs

he loved, a feeling of such abandonment overcomes

me and I wish he were still here, still breathing with

the charm his personality held for me - the hour of

his death was so exquisitely timed to save me

My dad gave his life at just the right time to save mine,

let me rejoice as he gave me the gift of life twice: thank

you dad, your being carried me to safety - thank you so

much and I love you dad… 

My Own Heart [Rev]

I don’t mind not doing anything - all I want
is a dream; just finding an ideal that fires
my mind and fills my heart would be such
a delight - anything - visions of swimming
in a warm sea, of me drifting with the tide

sun-tanning on the sand & wearing a huge
hat - enjoying inspired conversations with
enthusiastic people who are chasing their
own Quixotic visions with energy - today,
as my African colleagues are wearing and

admiring their national costumes, I eagerly
watch - enjoying their joie-de-vivre, wishing
for eager & exited expectations within my
own heart…

Dioxide And Sulphate [Rev]

The “Lament For Lyrica” goes on and on at sites like
Peoplespharmacy and Medhelp - pains unexplained
leave disillusioned users aghast at withdrawal more
horrific and painful than heroin, knowing commercial
enzymes meant for detergents are used to convey
synthetic pregabalin into cells and skin; it seems

Quite logical that the other ingredients are extremely
toxic too - the FDA cheerfully reveals Lyrica contains
th’ following utterly obnoxious things: titanium dioxide,
red iron oxide, sodium lauryl sulphate with the added
benefit of colloidal silicon dioxide - while obviously

Titatium dioxide is a mineral pigment used to colour &
thicken paint, it also devastates & permeates human
intestines & causes inflammation in the brain as well
as rheumatoid arthritis promoting general cell death

Lyrica’s red iron oxide aggravates food intolerance,
causes kidney damage ‘cause it’s a neurotoxin, one
which caused blindness in dog trials and is also well-
documented and known as a skin and eye irritant

Lyrica’s sodium lauryl sulphate, usually used in lather,
the high neurotoxicity causing damage to the central
nervous system, liver & kidneys - & also endocrine
disruption with nausea, vomiting & diarrhoea

Lyrica’s colloidal silicon dioxide is admitted as having
side effects of fatigue & loss of appetite - irritating the
eyes - & high levels of silicon lead to problems in the
kidneys, liver, brain and nervous system

Pain-control through Lyrica is done by killing a body
piecemeal so pain doesn’t register in the brain; thus
the drug addict who cannot feel nor think pays to be
killed - only when money runs out & the brain, along
with the nervous system, register toxic effect - the
addicts find the poisoned body cells die ad infinitum

Lyrica With Titanium Dioxide

https://www.fda.gov/downloads/Drugs/DrugSafety/UCM152825.pdf

Lyrica contains: 1. Titanium dioxide; 2. Red iron oxide; 3.
Sodium lauryl sulfate, 4. Colloidal silicon dioxide


1. TITANIUM DIOXIDE

Titanium dioxide DEVASTATES the IMMUNE SYSTEM because
it PERMEATES the INTESTINES causing CHRONIC
INFLAMMATORY CONDITIONS which accelerate AUTOIMMUNE
DISEASES such as RHEUMATOID ARTHRITIS.

Titanium dioxide is a natural mineral used as pigment to
color and thicken paints, in sunscreen and oral products,
medicines and food products.

You do not want to be consuming the same ingredients in
your medicine as in the paint on your kitchen walls. Titanium
has health consequences and should not be added to foods
and medicine.

Fine titanium dioxide particles escape the immune defense
cells that engulf harmful particles, and cause INFLAMMATION
which leads to uncontrollable cell death called apoptosis.

The FDA does not regulate the purity of titanium dioxide or
the synthetic materials used to coat the mineral and accepts
a certain concentration of Lead, Arsenic, Antimony and
MERCURY in foods containing Titanium Dioxide.

Titanium Dioxide is TOXIC, alters GENE expression and
permeates the BRAIN and placenta - which affects a
developing fetus. It also causes INFLAMMATION of
BRAIN TISSUE which results in abnormal brain activity.

Titanium Dioxide particles damage the GUT LINING
and are stored in the LIVER, SPLEEN, KIDNEYS and
LUNG TISSUE.

The peptidylarginine deiminase PROTEIN is induced in
the presence of Titanium Dioxide Particles and causes
OXIDATIVE STRESS and INFLAMMATION which
damages ORGANS of the digestive tract and
the BRAIN.


2. IRON OXIDE [E172]

Iron oxide black, RED and yellow, is a SKIN and EYE IRRITANT.
Inhalation of iron oxides causes lung inflammation. The
Genotoxicity of Iron Oxides makes ANY route of exposure
hazardous.
The Nanotoxicity of iron oxides used in medical treatments
cause TOXICITY in some cell types when paired with coatings
which bind the iron oxide particles to cell types like
cancer cells. While neither the iron oxide or coatings are
individually harmful, in combination they cause unexpected
reactions in the cells they bind to.

E172 Iron oxides aggravate FOOD INTOLERANCES and cause KIDNEY
DAMAGE. It is a suspected NEUROTOXIN which caused BLINDNESS in
dog studies.


3. SODIUM LAURYL SULFATE [SLS]

Sodium lauryl sulphate [SLS] allows cleansing
products to foam. SLS is a "moderate HAZARD"
linked to cancer, NEUROTOXICITY, ORGAN
TOXICITY, SKIN IRRITATIONand ENDOCRINE
disruption.

Undiluted SLS causes SKIN & EYE IRRITATION, NAUSEA,
VOMITING & DIARRHEA. Mercola.com reports SLS is often
contaminated with 1,4 dioxane that is "possibly carcinogenic
to humans" & causes negative effects in the kidneys, liver
and central nervous system.


4. COLLOIDAL SILICON DIOXIDE

Side effects: FATIGUE, loss of appetite and EYE
IRRITATION. High silicon levels cause problems
in the KIDNEYS, BRAIN, NERVOUS SYSTEM, CHEST,
BONE, and liver.

Occupational exposure lead to lung haemorrhage
(bleeding), inflammation of the kidneys, polyangiitis
(inflammation of small vessels), RHEUMATOID
ARTHRITIS & scleroderma (a skin condition).

An Exotic Rajah

Misery is not an option, sitting in abject misery
accomplishes nothing – with two towels in the
freezer to wrap around my head in the extreme
heat, a wet bandana in my hair and a wet scarf
over my pants and a pail of water on my desk

I’m ready to face the supreme heat on the ninth
floor of this office building in sweltering Africa –
when I read the lovely tale of the “Hope of South
Africa” - a young girl in a green dress begging
Old Father Time to bring people to fill her empty

land - as a child; I didn’t envisage dying in my
country’s heat after arriving here in fulfilment of
Father Time’s prophecy of many peoples coming
to colonise this charmed continent; but today I’m
ready to dive into my Spanish translation –

checking terms as best I can, ignoring the fact that
my best has never been good enough, just content
to be alive, joyously anticipating my colleagues’
distress upon seeing the wet towel around my
head like an exotic rajah from afar…

A Meal To Sleep

Good-feeling thoughts mean I must find
a reason to be happy while warm air blows
through the new building’s air-con, at least
it is a new building for us & the heat assails
us in a new way, and as I could not sleep
last night, I watched Weird Animals while
lying on the floor as the cat had the couch

Thus I dozed a few minutes every hour, and
I have a spray-can with water to keep cool
while walking to the pick-up point in the heat
and I printed 2 translations; so some things
are going right, let me be thankful for going
home within an hour and planning a meal
that would allow me to sleep…

Excluding Everything Else [R]

I want only one thing: feel-good emotions –
and to find these I have to think good-feeling
thoughts: after taking drugs prescribed by the
ignorant and suffering withdrawal depression,
it is very difficult to think feel-good thoughts:

that a local pastor is ordering illness to leave a
woman and she is healthy today, that the air-
con is working and we have improved work
circumstances, that my colleagues are kind &
mean well, that my twin sis’s happily married

and she’s having a good time, that Nici found a
job to her taste, that Tiaan is enjoying his studies
and life and found a girlfriend he loves, that I can
walk 7 blocks to be picked up after work – thus
combining exercise and efficiency, that my

Spanish translation is nearly finished and should
be polished in a last round, that my 85-year old
mother is enjoying playing the piano at concerts,
that my husband is healthy and strong, that my
eldest daughter trusts the dedicated pastor who

understands her complaints, that my new sister-
in-law is clever and kind and handled eight kids
with aplomb, that we visited the Cape and
returned without accident – I’m counting
blessings - all I need is a positive focal

point to focus on to the exclusion of
everything else…