A Feel-Good Thought [Rev]

Ergotamine scrunches up the ache in my head
while leaving pain intact in feet, shoulders and
neck; if negative thought is the cause, then the
ache will return, but if the cause is inflammatory
cells, the situation will get worse forcing me to
seek help from the most dangerous group of
professionals out there - with a license to kill

The medical fraternity, so well represented by
“House” as a modern Sherlock Holmes in the
TV series where patient killing’s the only way
to determine what’s wrong with him, whereas
Münchausen’s syndrome is a prime suspect -
my problem is food setting a smouldering fire
alight in my head: all illness is psychosomatic

In origin, a guru claims, smiling benevolently
at mankind; all pain stems from our thoughts
which explains why I feel better thinking that
at least I’m not in the Second World War, not
to be tortured and martyred for a good cause;
at least my thought process causing physical
pain doesn’t lead to people punishing me for

My inability to stop feeling unwell and THIS
is a feel-good thought…

[Monday 5 February 2018]

Painful Burning

Shoulders sagging - feeling guilty about having a
migraine - fearing what dire prognosis this might
lead to, what surrender t’ delinquent punishment
entailing pain may mean - relief is only to repeat
over and over that my legs or arms won’t be cut
off in retribution - I won’t be sent to prison; there
is no punishment for failing to find perfect health

There are painkillers galore and as long as I take
these to enable me to function and be at my post,
I can be conscience-free and do my best, even if
my best isn’t all that good - it’s all I have to give -
sitting at my desk is not too bad but talking to the
other folk at work is the real test, staying patient
while th’ inside of my head feels flaming red and

Burning, & my eyes are popping out of my head:
it is a real trial & true suffering; try to stay calm
while others happily ‘gibber-gabber’ about their
great lives - while mine is a shambles of painful
burning and pressure in my head...

[REVISED]

[Monday 5 February 2018]
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[ORIGINAL - before polishing]

Shoulders sagging - feeling guilty about having
a migraine, fearing what dire prognosis this might
entail, what punishment delinquent surrender to
pain might mean - and the only relief is to repeat
over and over that my legs or arms will not be cut
off in retribution, I won’t be sent to prison; there
is no punishment for failing to find perfect health

There are painkillers galore and as long as I take
these to enable me to function and be at my post,
I can be conscience-free and do my best, even if
my best is not very good - it’s all I’ve got to give,
sitting at my desk is not too bad but talking to the
other folk at work is the real test, staying patient
while the inside of my head feels flaming red and

Burning and my eyes are popping out of my head:
this is the real trial, the real suffering, to stay calm
while others happily gibber-gabber about their
great lives – while mine is a shambles of painful
burning and pressure in my head…

[Monday 5 February 2018]