Stream Carrying Me Into Nothingness

I grew up with the mistaken belief only painful life

is meaningful, that living carefree and happy was

sinful & senseless - only struggling and suffering

would make us worthy - and it is so wrong at so

 

Many levels as it is obviously true that everyone

strives to live as long as possible, except for the

few who commit suicide: why would most people

prefer living to death if life were truly dedicated to

 

Sadness and pain - since pain & disappointment

go hand in hand, it’s logical that anything I do has

to fail for my life to have meaning: this sabotaging

myself has led to me taking great care to fail at

 

Most everything - success implies loss of meaning,

when success was achieved inadvertently, I felt so

worried and guilty; but this is no way to live - being

told within Calvinist tradition that we have all been

 

Conceived & born in sin, stopped me in my tracks

before I could take any steps towards success - &

the constant war at home; Mom blaming Grandma

Alice for the family going bankrupt & Dad blaming

 

Both of them for his losing everything, which is true;

he did lose everything he worked for, at least he did

retain his five privileged kids healthy & thriving - but

continuous war at home convinced me that only a

 

Feeling of war is proof of life & passion - thus I can

never be content in a calm and loving environment,

so I am condemned to a life of strife since it is the

only template that makes sense of life - but today

 

I realise the spiritualist claim that “Life is a game of

consciousness, in which all living things relish the

feeling of being alive versus nothingness, in which

challenge is exciting & adventure gives spice to life”

 

Is true as it explains everything - yet I remain stuck

in the feeling of the meaninglessness of life - I can’t

get out of the stream carrying me into nothingness...

Homo Ignoramus II

We don’t know whether other planets have life on

them and whether the life-forms  are like those on

earth - & we don’t not know how the solar system

came into being, although we have built up many

hypotheses about it; we suppose the solar system

started billions of years ago & claim it must be so  

 

We can’t explain mysterious gravitation, we don’t

know how mountains came into existence or how

the continents were formed, though we make up

many hypotheses about all these; we don’t know 

where oil came from - but we sell hypotheses to

each other like so much snake oil - we don’t know

 

Why a thick glacial sheet covered most of Europe

and North America as we believe it did; nor do we

know why the same fauna appear in both the Old

and New World, and we don’t know where the salt

in the sea came from, and mankind believes it has

lived on this planet for millions of years, yet there

 

Is a recorded history of only a few thousand years -

while questions abound - why did the Bronze Age

precede the Iron Age when iron is widely distributed

over the world and its manufacture is simpler than

the alloy of copper and tin - how were the immense

block structures built on the high mountains of the

 

Andes - and what caused the legend of the Flood

to appear in all the countries of the world - what

does "antediluvian" mean; where did the idea of

the end of the world originate? 

Homo Ignoramus I

I love the theory of Homo Ignoramus: We don’t know

what life is or how life came to be, and nobody knows

whether life originated from inorganic matter - which  

sounds highly suspicious to all the thinking, rational

creatures who have never seen evidence of creation

 

Taking place without a plan made first - and the idea

that consciousness existed before anything else could

come into existence, thus 'the theory of spontaneous

explosion of physical matter - leading to spontaneous

existence of intelligence', sounds so illogical; whereas

 

Assuming that non-physical consciousness came first

and this intelligence is independent of belief & service

by acolytes, makes 100 per cent more sense - but so

afraid are the superstitious modern atheists of anyone

realising that morality is independent from religion and

 

Creates a better world, that they try to indoctrinate

everyone to believe that the universe exists without

consciousness and awareness, therefore being only

a magical occurrence without meaning or purpose -

except the need for wealth, power and suppression

 

So they relentlessly persecute all who research a

different theory, and though they glory in quantum

theory as an example of mindless being, it actually

creates room for every alternative theory imagination

can create and explain - therefore there is reason to

 

Rejoice as Freedom and Spiritualism is alive and

kicking - and will be forevermore!

Visiting With Mother Superior

Having absurd conversations about solving problems is fun!

Although there are general problems, personally we can't 

complain about anything in our little lives in our little corner 

in the world, and we live very happily...

Brahms' Lullaby - Wiegenlied

I thought a melody by Brahms would be a better choice,

but instead of listening to his Wiegenlied, a lovely lullaby

 

I managed to find his Ein Deutsches Requiem - Ihr Habt

Nun Traurigkeit - & sadly I listened - then looked at the

 

*Translation finding that the music contains a promise for

the listeners to be comforted as if by their mother - and

 

That is exactly what is described in Brahms Lullaby, so

going to his Wiegenlied, I found the comfort I sought…

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https://youtu.be/_N8L0-f7E0M “Ihr habt nun Traurigkeit” (Ein Deutsches Requiem) 

Brahms [Barbara Bonney]

*Translation: Now now you have sorrow, but I will see you again,

and your heart shall rejoice, and your joy no man shall take from

you, I will comfort you like one who is comforted by his mother.

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https://youtu.be/Q2zAXfhcnTA  Wiegenlied: Guten Abend, gute Nacht -

Brahms  [Esther Valentin] 

Guten Abend, gute Nacht, mit Rosen bedacht,

mit Näglein besteckt, schlüpf unter die Deck!

Morgen früh, wenn Gott will, wirst du wieder geweckt.

 

Guten Abend, gute Nacht, von Englein bewacht,

die zeigen im Traum dir Christkindleins Baum.

Schlaf nun selig und süß, schau im Traum 's Paradies.

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= Wiegeliedjie (Slaap, my kindjie,  slaap sag)  

 [Woorde: JAN F.E. CELLIERS Musiek: JOHANNES BRAHMS; Op. 49 nr. 4]

Slaap, my kindjie, slaap sag, onder rose vannag

Eers die armpies om my nek en dan warmpies toegedek

môre vroeg, as God wil, word my kindjie gewek (2X).

 

Slaap, my kindjie, slaap sag, onder eng'le se wag;

hulle toon jou in 'n droom kindjie Jesus se boom

Slaap nou soet, hulle wys jou 'n droomparadys (2X).

Continue To Exist

When Solveig’s Song is replaced by the sad melody

of Casta Diva playing on repeat in my brain, the world

remains a cold, empty place where Druidic goddesses

fall in love with Roman proconsuls, then quietly decide

 

To commit infanticide when they discover he had left her

for another priestess, only the pleas of his new mistress

prevents Norma, the anguished priestess who broke her

chaste vows and contemplated murder in the process -

 

From killing her children; how uplifting is this, never look

to opera for inspiration to cheer up your flagging spirits

when you feel depressed, it will make you wish to take

your own life in the face of the ill-advised shenanigans

 

Of the main characters - like the dancing Salome who

demanded the head of a foe on a platter when a lustful

King offered her a chance to obtain half of his Kingdom,

though it’s probably not as bad as Hannibal Lecter

 

Eating his victims in his frenzy of hatred for stupid people

wasting his time as psychologist with their silly problems,

better look to the original story of “The Little Mermaid” by

Hans Christian Anderson for comfort: after refusing to kill

 

The prince who scorned her to marry another - she was

given a soul and thus could continue to exist into infinity,

this is ever so much better than the sad stories above…

https://youtu.be/EJ2L_B7VOWs

Casta Diva English Translation:   Pure Goddess who covers these ancient 

sacred plants with your silver light, we turn to your lovely face - uncovered 

and without veil - please appease the ardent spirits and calm their bold zeal, 

please bring down the peace with which you shine in the sky, to the earth…

Sad, Lonely Melody

Living life with the sad, lonely melody of Solveig’s song

playing in my head is not much fun, apparently Solveig

loved Peer Gynt, a coward without a moral compass, &

though it is rather difficult to imagine her loving such an

 

Immoral person, since loving someone without integrity

is guaranteed to break your heart - but if such was her

fancy, she was free to choose her own destiny and she

lived a very sad life according to Grieg, the composer

 

Of her sad signature melody, which should not be

allowed to accompany me wherever I go; - I accept 

Ibsen's premise that such an unrequited love existed  

for the sake of redeeming Peer Gynt's life...    

https://youtu.be/l1nXoZQh71k