Why is it every time a family member dies,
we have so much fun, we laugh and laugh,
but when the lights go out and I’m alone in
bed at night, I cry and cry? Why can’t the
laughter stay with me as I say a prayer &
get into bed and stare into the dark - joy
gone, sadness constricting my throat as
I’m laying there, wishing I could sing
a lullaby Aber Heidschi Bumbeidschi...
When the Queen of Hearts died, it was
delight as she suffered so much because
of her legs; as Conan expired, morphine
to stop the pain, I was glad for him as he
sighed ‘I have to die-just don’t know how’
then my brother Genghis gave up, tired of
knowing he was Tom Thumb inside, thus
deciding to sever spirit from body to seek
the light - now I’m waiting for him to...
Come calling to listen to the Nutcracker
Suite, he and I with stacks of records -
listening over and over: dreaming of
becoming the happy people we only
imagined in our minds…
[Tuesday, 15 March 2022]
[Aber Heidschi Bumbeidschi schlaf lange, es ist deine Mutter ausgangen,
und ist sie gegangen und kehrt nicht mehr heim, und lässt ihr klein’s Bübchen
so ganz allein, aber Heidschi Bumbeidschi bum bum...]
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