Going down memory lane with Peter Pan, dissecting
the past, showing me the nightmares I have missed &
I’m so pleased, ignorance is bliss - not knowing what
was going on, I lived in my own bubble, though it was
too quiet and unnatural for health, I was focused on
dreams and ideals and missed the stupidity & misery
That beset those around me: I’m sorry dad was such
a messed-up human being, I ignored him completely
when I was small and that is good because I could
not do anything to help him - he had to learn to help
himself and I believe that is what he did in the end,
when I was able to understand and forgive was the
Right time to let him into my life - offer him friendship
and love, though he might not have understood what
he did wrong - how offensive his abusive behaviour - ,
I found he had a heart made of gold & deep sympathy
with everyone suffering & he could see the ugly truth
and pretense behind every lovely façade and I love
Him for teaching me to distrust charm & falsehood &
to reject deceptive overtures; he did not express his
insight into evil and corruption wisely, always spoke
and acted without refinement - but pointed out the
rotten core the snobbery which he abhorred, was
designed to hide: though he cursed like a sailor &
Tried to drown his sorrows with the most distressing
results - I later discovered a clear stream of delightful
love flowing under the mask life forced on him as a
scarred Phantom without a loving Christine…
[His favourite book was "Pollyanna"]
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