Absurd Side of Depression (Rev.)

Found an absurd side to depression, wanted to
resign because I suffocated, to run away from
myself and be dejected somewhere else, but
too disheartened to fill out a million forms

Bought a magic dish that worked before, evil
sweet stuff dieticians warn about, wonder of
wonders felt better – if for a moment, and my
mind feels fantastic when dark feelings lift

Covered the French class notebook that breaks
my spirit and collapses my mind, a new victory
over blackness within, a white and black design
to symbolise the contrast I see, the white-hot

happiness and pitch-dark depression caused by
horrible sounds killing rhythms and melodies that
live in my mind – the sweet voices that express
true rebellion against things I detest