Lost To Understanding (Revised)

Better to be dead than to suffer whatever
reality it is that makes us feel so mean and
lost to understanding. My twin explained
I was the Christmas ‘problem’s’ cause, her
feelings hurt by my words and phrasing, an
offer to take Dad to the holiday resort was
being GOOD because she thought I did not
want to see her and my mother at all – how
it all came down to ME being unfeeling

I did not even try to explain that her words
‘Drop off dad’s present, then come with me
on a trip into the bush, IGNORE your dad’ –
caused home-turf agonies; I know my idea
that she should invite my family to her abode
backfired, accept it as my fault - my father’s
unhappiness was due to my lack of insight in
voicing an opinion - which so clearly lacks
all vestiges of love and consideration