New situations offer opportunity to change our
minds, undo previous choices – some decisions
are cast in steel altered only by brainwashing
to undo the etchings pictured in mind
We are slaves of a system we were born into –
formed of a world when small; unless we see
where indoctrination and propaganda begin
as opposed to underlying, inherent truth
We must accept it as part of a localised system,
a few objective truths such as life, instinct and
relationships, the rest comprising principles
and ideals, invisible rules guiding
Our human steps, evolving from a physical
universe which truly supports us – our only
enemy is human thoughts and theories, the
amazing discovery – all problems lead back
To communication! So let’s study hermeneutics
and interpretation to refine language based on
divergent cultural ideas, realising everything is
man-made – especially our gods
And that, of course, is the problem
Friday, March 30, 2012
Thursday, March 29, 2012
My poem by Big Brother Ivan
This is what Ivan had to say: Click on the link to read it...
http://igorevich.blogspot.com.au/2012/03/estranged-reality.html
http://igorevich.blogspot.com.au/2012/03/estranged-reality.html
Wednesday, March 28, 2012
Especially Igorevich
http://igorevich.blogspot.com.au/2012/03/estranged-reality.html
Sometimes we have problems and cannot share them, then suddenly
someone understands and explains to us what actually happened
and how we can deal with it - I wish to thank those who can
illuminate the world and help me deal with it, especially
Igorevich who seems to get a hold of reality and tweak
the lines of time until things make sense again!
"A Caribbean Mystery"
Nemesis – Miss Marple with a pink scarf – Mr Rafiel
laughing, Tim Kendal caught in the act of poisoning
his wife after killing twice, an Esther not happy after
being exposed as loving a murderer, Molly Kendal
saved by the death of nasty Lucky who made life
hell for others
Oh, Dame Agatha Christie, how your story scared me,
in the end I feared for everybody but you presented
the most attractive solution in Caribbean Mystery,
tonight I can sleep well, no more nightmares of
me being a murder victim, I felt depressed on
meeting your characters
But now all is well, glad I could make it to the end,
face fears especially when Molly had hallucinations
and blackouts – this is why your books are good,
they scare and then lull me to sleep and make
life seem so great!
A Caribbean Mystery - Agatha Christie
laughing, Tim Kendal caught in the act of poisoning
his wife after killing twice, an Esther not happy after
being exposed as loving a murderer, Molly Kendal
saved by the death of nasty Lucky who made life
hell for others
Oh, Dame Agatha Christie, how your story scared me,
in the end I feared for everybody but you presented
the most attractive solution in Caribbean Mystery,
tonight I can sleep well, no more nightmares of
me being a murder victim, I felt depressed on
meeting your characters
But now all is well, glad I could make it to the end,
face fears especially when Molly had hallucinations
and blackouts – this is why your books are good,
they scare and then lull me to sleep and make
life seem so great!
A Caribbean Mystery - Agatha Christie
Quite Miserable
Ended up watching ‘Shake It Up’ Disney Channel
because no more 'Big Bang Theory' - 'Good Luck
Charlie' marvelous with a baby and dancing - a lil
bit of fun while the men are watching 'Top Gear' on
wide-screen TV - then 'Wizards of Waverley Place'
Ready to return to 'A Caribbean Mystery' by Agatha
Christie – Miss Marple being kind while Mr Rafiel
is inconsiderate, protagonists in horrible pairs and
worldly-wise, empty life-style being unfaithful, fine
if you are so inclined - I washed the dishes
Ankle starting to ache again, pain acute standing
too long – tomorrow I’ll be circumspect but right
now life not so good, I am alone and confused
like Christie’s protagonist, I wish I were Miss
Marple herself, she has a lot of fun
While I am quite miserable!
28 March 2012
because no more 'Big Bang Theory' - 'Good Luck
Charlie' marvelous with a baby and dancing - a lil
bit of fun while the men are watching 'Top Gear' on
wide-screen TV - then 'Wizards of Waverley Place'
Ready to return to 'A Caribbean Mystery' by Agatha
Christie – Miss Marple being kind while Mr Rafiel
is inconsiderate, protagonists in horrible pairs and
worldly-wise, empty life-style being unfaithful, fine
if you are so inclined - I washed the dishes
Ankle starting to ache again, pain acute standing
too long – tomorrow I’ll be circumspect but right
now life not so good, I am alone and confused
like Christie’s protagonist, I wish I were Miss
Marple herself, she has a lot of fun
While I am quite miserable!
28 March 2012
Monday, March 26, 2012
Twittering Like Miss Marple
Some of my innocent, Calvinistic colleagues cannot
stand friendliness, so when I get angry with them, I
simply start twittering just like Miss Marple, tottering
to them to share all my woes interspersed with my
always unappreciated jokes - some roll their eyes -
others flee, one or two listen for a moment or two
with superficial glee until they run away suddenly
Satisfied to have done my duty, taken my revenge
on a meaningless world, I return to my desk, ready
to catch any new victim, though when I’m garrulous
it is amazing how few people come in my direction,
it gives me immense satisfaction to penetrate the
social section for a few days – when I’m thoroughly
despised by all and the atmosphere turns hostile
I turn back into my mind, contemplate books and
theories, science and ideas, collecting new material
with which to drive hubby insane, terrorise the kids
and irritate brilliant scholars and great learned men
trying to indoctrinate the world to believe that we are
even more idiotic than we think – though I am on the
brink of understanding what they mean given
The books that I read about mental disorder and in-
stability and the programs on TV where razor sharp
voices belt out songs that hurt my ears in proof that
humanity’s IQ is rather low, EQ is zero and falling…
Look Forward To Being Robbed
Great, now I have fever and backache and stiff neck
and a sore ankle and cannot sleep, covered my head
and neck with Vicks, rolled myself into an old sheet
lay down but cannot sleep, listening to the sound of
criminals proceeding outside – or so it seems –
Planning a welcoming speech so they would not feel
unwelcome - what sort of life do I lead when I look
forward to being robbed - realising no such luck I got
up, ready to watch bland TV, cheesy Ballande with
long stick insect legs balancing on stiletto heels
Women falling over trying to seduce with evocative move-
ments which make me wish for insecticide - wearing thin
strips of material, the budget does not allow for ball gowns,
contestants have to look great in remnants & feathers, men
wearing jeans - the chattering presenter’s raucous voice
Like incessant machine gun fire, she is so pretty but makes
such a terrible noise – where are the criminals and burglars
and housebreakers and thugs when you need them, how
can I prove that I shall be good to them if they do not try
breaking and entering, what use is all we have learnt
About self-defence if we never get a chance to use these
techniques; why am I reduced to watching Ballando when
Lyall Watson’s moon and electro-magnetic sunspots make
life unbearable?
and a sore ankle and cannot sleep, covered my head
and neck with Vicks, rolled myself into an old sheet
lay down but cannot sleep, listening to the sound of
criminals proceeding outside – or so it seems –
Planning a welcoming speech so they would not feel
unwelcome - what sort of life do I lead when I look
forward to being robbed - realising no such luck I got
up, ready to watch bland TV, cheesy Ballande with
long stick insect legs balancing on stiletto heels
Women falling over trying to seduce with evocative move-
ments which make me wish for insecticide - wearing thin
strips of material, the budget does not allow for ball gowns,
contestants have to look great in remnants & feathers, men
wearing jeans - the chattering presenter’s raucous voice
Like incessant machine gun fire, she is so pretty but makes
such a terrible noise – where are the criminals and burglars
and housebreakers and thugs when you need them, how
can I prove that I shall be good to them if they do not try
breaking and entering, what use is all we have learnt
About self-defence if we never get a chance to use these
techniques; why am I reduced to watching Ballando when
Lyall Watson’s moon and electro-magnetic sunspots make
life unbearable?
Diary Notes 26 March 2012
Today was a total disaster, never shall I ever wear red again,
with my red face – completely against the decrees of haute
couture - it looked awful, after walking the treadmill as per
my daughter’s instruction, the red is spreading…
Misunderstandings in the office meant I leopard-crawled every-
where, sailed on my belly and felt like a worm – hubby felt no
sympathy, just laughed and told me to start accept my disaster
of a life, at least the bitterness is leaving, I’m resigned
As long as I keep the innermost part of my heart intact, protect
the sweetest dreams from reality’s attack, I should be safe...
with my red face – completely against the decrees of haute
couture - it looked awful, after walking the treadmill as per
my daughter’s instruction, the red is spreading…
Misunderstandings in the office meant I leopard-crawled every-
where, sailed on my belly and felt like a worm – hubby felt no
sympathy, just laughed and told me to start accept my disaster
of a life, at least the bitterness is leaving, I’m resigned
As long as I keep the innermost part of my heart intact, protect
the sweetest dreams from reality’s attack, I should be safe...
Sunday, March 25, 2012
Anything is Possible
The code could also be a hologram - no-one
can explain how it was created by some mind
beyond imagination, we have to invent some-
thing to read the Book of Life
It states Einstein’s Unified Field Theory exists
in a 5th dimension beyond these 3 dimensions
of space and 4th of time - quantum physicists
already agree a 5th does exist
Only fact about code’s origin: no human could
encode it; proof of an intelligence completely
different from our own, we are not alone, an
outside encoder is somewhere
Michael Drosnin’s report on code research
enriches my life, nourishment for a starving
imagination, I feel privileged to study the
theories and thoughts of scientists
Exploring myriad dimensions of holographic
reality by shining their mind’s laser-light on it,
we live in a holographic universe constituted
of waves varying in frequencies
Anything is possible, those without interest
need never know - being curious I am not
content to remain in the dark when thought
can illuminate all to reveal the reality
Beyond eternity…
The Bible Code, Michael Drosnin, Weidenfeld &
Nicolson, 1997 ----
pp. 45&46
can explain how it was created by some mind
beyond imagination, we have to invent some-
thing to read the Book of Life
It states Einstein’s Unified Field Theory exists
in a 5th dimension beyond these 3 dimensions
of space and 4th of time - quantum physicists
already agree a 5th does exist
Only fact about code’s origin: no human could
encode it; proof of an intelligence completely
different from our own, we are not alone, an
outside encoder is somewhere
Michael Drosnin’s report on code research
enriches my life, nourishment for a starving
imagination, I feel privileged to study the
theories and thoughts of scientists
Exploring myriad dimensions of holographic
reality by shining their mind’s laser-light on it,
we live in a holographic universe constituted
of waves varying in frequencies
Anything is possible, those without interest
need never know - being curious I am not
content to remain in the dark when thought
can illuminate all to reveal the reality
Beyond eternity…
The Bible Code, Michael Drosnin, Weidenfeld &
Nicolson, 1997 ----
pp. 45&46
Dream on Every Thought
You cannot expect me to find this boring,
living on the edge of the abyss, only the
flow of information, the mystery of un-
explainable infinity, holds any interest
I’m not a human being but a human striving,
need challenges and ideals to inspire me -
found one of such variety, yet you yawn in
reply - now you experience how I feel
When faced with the boring facts of life,
steel girders of visible reality alienating
me from my spirit, forcing me to go
on quests to find new ideas
Quests are lonely - I admit - discovery is
great even if isolation hurts a little bit, the
ecstasy of finding the best experience
felt by restless consciousness…
**********************************************
How much could there be in the Bible code,
is there a limit to the information it can con-
tain, if you say EVERYTHING is in there, can
you explain it to the layman:
The original Hebrew limited-data-base text of
the Old Testament is only 304 805 letters long,
yet unlimited information bits encoded in end-
less combinations, 20 billion bits at least
More data than can be found in several lifetimes,
without including crossword puzzles created by
2, 3 or 10 words linked together – actually the
amount of information is incalculable
An infinite set of data found at first level of the
Bible code, there is more to come – oh, joy,
I savour every word, dream on every thought!
The Bible Code, Michael Drosnin, Weidenfeld &
Nicolson, 1997 ----
pp. 44&45
living on the edge of the abyss, only the
flow of information, the mystery of un-
explainable infinity, holds any interest
I’m not a human being but a human striving,
need challenges and ideals to inspire me -
found one of such variety, yet you yawn in
reply - now you experience how I feel
When faced with the boring facts of life,
steel girders of visible reality alienating
me from my spirit, forcing me to go
on quests to find new ideas
Quests are lonely - I admit - discovery is
great even if isolation hurts a little bit, the
ecstasy of finding the best experience
felt by restless consciousness…
**********************************************
How much could there be in the Bible code,
is there a limit to the information it can con-
tain, if you say EVERYTHING is in there, can
you explain it to the layman:
The original Hebrew limited-data-base text of
the Old Testament is only 304 805 letters long,
yet unlimited information bits encoded in end-
less combinations, 20 billion bits at least
More data than can be found in several lifetimes,
without including crossword puzzles created by
2, 3 or 10 words linked together – actually the
amount of information is incalculable
An infinite set of data found at first level of the
Bible code, there is more to come – oh, joy,
I savour every word, dream on every thought!
The Bible Code, Michael Drosnin, Weidenfeld &
Nicolson, 1997 ----
pp. 44&45
Saturday, March 24, 2012
Awareness
Bible code predicts all possible futures in
accordance with Heisenberg Uncertainty
Principle - not only one, but a myriad
possible futures are waiting ahead
Quantum physics describe various possible
outcomes and how likely each is; defining a
being outside the system is too limiting, think
of intelligent, loving energy
Manifesting a universe and living things while
continuing beyond our three dimensional world,
transcending space and time by encoding a text
to illustrate quantum physics applied
Magnetic, electric energy brings forth individuals
as conscious tools to operate within reality where
everything possesses a form of awareness - from
the primitive will to exist
Fighting against non-being – to the amazing
diversity of thinking, feeling, seeking, dreaming
human beings…
The Bible Code, Michael Drosnin, Weidenfeld &
Nicolson, 1997 ----
p. 42
accordance with Heisenberg Uncertainty
Principle - not only one, but a myriad
possible futures are waiting ahead
Quantum physics describe various possible
outcomes and how likely each is; defining a
being outside the system is too limiting, think
of intelligent, loving energy
Manifesting a universe and living things while
continuing beyond our three dimensional world,
transcending space and time by encoding a text
to illustrate quantum physics applied
Magnetic, electric energy brings forth individuals
as conscious tools to operate within reality where
everything possesses a form of awareness - from
the primitive will to exist
Fighting against non-being – to the amazing
diversity of thinking, feeling, seeking, dreaming
human beings…
The Bible Code, Michael Drosnin, Weidenfeld &
Nicolson, 1997 ----
p. 42
No Crystal Ball
A case study illustrates how this code works:
insert words ‘Yitzhak Rabin’ so the computer
divides 304 805 letters into 64 rows of 4 772
letters each, the words in centre of matrix
This means skip code sequence is 4772, if skip
code is 10; 30 480 rows of 10 letters are made;
when rows are rearranged, new sets of inter-
locking words and phrases are created
Code words determine arrangement of text and
crossword puzzles change, phrase ‘assassin will
assassinate’ touched Rabin’s name - but only
after his death assassin’s name AMIR was
found in the same place
The Bible is no crystal ball, you have to know
what to look for in advance - what a relief, no
future foretold, merely probabilities, nothing
determined - we shall always be free to
make up our own mind
Science speculates Bible might have been
encoded by non-human intelligence - and
Einstein relativity claims past and future is
one, time division an illusion, therefore
such a code could be created
Without breaking any rules governing our
universe, how gratifying to know the
range of possibilities ever so much
bigger than we suspected!
The Bible Code, Michael Drosnin, Weidenfeld &
Nicolson, 1997 ----
p.27-38
insert words ‘Yitzhak Rabin’ so the computer
divides 304 805 letters into 64 rows of 4 772
letters each, the words in centre of matrix
This means skip code sequence is 4772, if skip
code is 10; 30 480 rows of 10 letters are made;
when rows are rearranged, new sets of inter-
locking words and phrases are created
Code words determine arrangement of text and
crossword puzzles change, phrase ‘assassin will
assassinate’ touched Rabin’s name - but only
after his death assassin’s name AMIR was
found in the same place
The Bible is no crystal ball, you have to know
what to look for in advance - what a relief, no
future foretold, merely probabilities, nothing
determined - we shall always be free to
make up our own mind
Science speculates Bible might have been
encoded by non-human intelligence - and
Einstein relativity claims past and future is
one, time division an illusion, therefore
such a code could be created
Without breaking any rules governing our
universe, how gratifying to know the
range of possibilities ever so much
bigger than we suspected!
The Bible Code, Michael Drosnin, Weidenfeld &
Nicolson, 1997 ----
p.27-38
Friday, March 23, 2012
Was, Is and Will Be
‘All that was, is and will be unto end of time, is in the
Torah, from first to last word: details of species, each
individual, all that happened from birth to death’*
The old Hebrew version of the Old Testament is a
crossword puzzle computer program, a Bible code;
skip fifty letters in sequences to find the term Torah
at the beginning of Genesis, Exodus, Numbers
and Deuteronomy
The universe a cryptogram set by the Almighty;
the Bible a time-lock opened by computer, code-
breakers found the names, dates and cities of 66
wise men encoded together in a network criss-
crossing Bible text
No spaces between words - 304 805 letters - in a
continuous line: start on first letter, search names,
words and phrases, skip 1, 2, 3, 4 - X letters; start
on second letter, repeat the process and continue
up to last letter
Find key words & related facts encoded together,
matching words in close proximity, length of skips
between search words to be small, interlocking
words reveal related information in Bible text
only, not in millions of test cases
Bible provides infinite information, related words in
cross-word puzzles cross vertically, horizontally and
diagonally; meets quantum physics theory of unlimited
probability and possibility – I shall never fear
boredom again
Armed with this computer program which resembles
notes of music in never-ending configurations - as
unique as snowdrops and fingerprints; no wonder
everything is contained and explained therein –
as to meaning and origin:
Existence manifests as an intelligent, loving energy
which illustrates quantum physics principles and
relativity in a great testament to creation!
[The Bible Code, Michael Drosnin, Weidenfeld &
Nicolson, 1997 ----
Quotes from pp. 19 - 25 The Genius of Vilna*]
Torah, from first to last word: details of species, each
individual, all that happened from birth to death’*
The old Hebrew version of the Old Testament is a
crossword puzzle computer program, a Bible code;
skip fifty letters in sequences to find the term Torah
at the beginning of Genesis, Exodus, Numbers
and Deuteronomy
The universe a cryptogram set by the Almighty;
the Bible a time-lock opened by computer, code-
breakers found the names, dates and cities of 66
wise men encoded together in a network criss-
crossing Bible text
No spaces between words - 304 805 letters - in a
continuous line: start on first letter, search names,
words and phrases, skip 1, 2, 3, 4 - X letters; start
on second letter, repeat the process and continue
up to last letter
Find key words & related facts encoded together,
matching words in close proximity, length of skips
between search words to be small, interlocking
words reveal related information in Bible text
only, not in millions of test cases
Bible provides infinite information, related words in
cross-word puzzles cross vertically, horizontally and
diagonally; meets quantum physics theory of unlimited
probability and possibility – I shall never fear
boredom again
Armed with this computer program which resembles
notes of music in never-ending configurations - as
unique as snowdrops and fingerprints; no wonder
everything is contained and explained therein –
as to meaning and origin:
Existence manifests as an intelligent, loving energy
which illustrates quantum physics principles and
relativity in a great testament to creation!
[The Bible Code, Michael Drosnin, Weidenfeld &
Nicolson, 1997 ----
Quotes from pp. 19 - 25 The Genius of Vilna*]
Thursday, March 22, 2012
Peer Group Ridicule
Drosnin’s book is intriguing, he suspects encoded
events are presented as alternate probabilities and
our action determines outcomes - a far cry from the
accusation that Drosnin supposedly says the Bible
predicts the future
When experiments proved the Bible Code exists; he
used this information - which scientists claim has no
meaning at all - in an attempt to save Prime Minister
Yitzhak Rabin and so scientists turned a cold shoulder
– how dare Drosnin
Defile their noncommittal discovery of such a code by
using it in a pragmatic way when they refuse practical
application, it is sacrilege to use this to prevent murder
as prediction is anathema to them, rather have the world
blown to pieces than
See the ‘impeccable’ method of science applied to save
mankind, rather perish and die than admit that knowledge
of the future could prevent a cataclysm – luckily Drosnin
is a journalist, not bound by the stupidity of the academic
community - his warnings were ignored -
Yet he showed how much more preferable common sense
is compared to the intellectual rigidity and fear of peer
group ridicule of the statistical experts
[On p 18 Drosnin claims no-one can tell whether an encoded
event is predetermined or exist as possibility only, he thinks
the Bible encodes various probabilities and our action
determines outcomes]
The Bible Code, Michael Drosnin, Weidenfeld &
Nicolson, 1997 ----
events are presented as alternate probabilities and
our action determines outcomes - a far cry from the
accusation that Drosnin supposedly says the Bible
predicts the future
When experiments proved the Bible Code exists; he
used this information - which scientists claim has no
meaning at all - in an attempt to save Prime Minister
Yitzhak Rabin and so scientists turned a cold shoulder
– how dare Drosnin
Defile their noncommittal discovery of such a code by
using it in a pragmatic way when they refuse practical
application, it is sacrilege to use this to prevent murder
as prediction is anathema to them, rather have the world
blown to pieces than
See the ‘impeccable’ method of science applied to save
mankind, rather perish and die than admit that knowledge
of the future could prevent a cataclysm – luckily Drosnin
is a journalist, not bound by the stupidity of the academic
community - his warnings were ignored -
Yet he showed how much more preferable common sense
is compared to the intellectual rigidity and fear of peer
group ridicule of the statistical experts
[On p 18 Drosnin claims no-one can tell whether an encoded
event is predetermined or exist as possibility only, he thinks
the Bible encodes various probabilities and our action
determines outcomes]
The Bible Code, Michael Drosnin, Weidenfeld &
Nicolson, 1997 ----
They EXIST - That Is All
Looking at commentary of erudite scholars
always superior to anyone else, being a gift
to mankind, I raise my unenlightened voice
to say what Bible Code claims mean to me,
the smallest bookworm that has ever been:
Such a code confirms the spiritual assertion
the Energy forming the universe is conscious,
intelligent, well-meaning and life-sustaining -
all examples of time-spanning non-sensory
communication such as these Bible Codes
Enlarge the spectrum of possibilities posited
by quantum physics, it is a joy to the thinking,
dreaming, feeling mind to find ever-widening
spirals of alternatives to the little bit of world
confirmed painstakingly by human scientists
As long as we remain free to study anything
the imagination can envision without bending
to the authority of science and religion alike,
without forcing anybody to pay homage to
us, the way science and religion compel
People to subscribe to their subjective theories;
we shall be all-right, as long as we reject claims
of other people’s non-sensory experience and
only believe in what we individually live and feel,
we shall become independent thinkers - and
Dream up a separate world for each one of us,
unique, subjective and individual; no-one allowed
to proselytise – only to sing their own song while
followers are simply told to go find or make their
own way…
A scientist can only find proof of something, the
public is free to ascribe meaning to it; nobody
should be compelled to agree with anyone else,
everybody is free to make up their own story
and live it
As long as they respect the right of their
neighbours to do the same…
http://www.despatch.cth.com.au/Articles_V/Torah_Extracts.htm
Public Statement by Harold Gans, Senior Cryptologic
Mathematician, U.S. Department of defense, retired
Independent Mathematical Consultant:
“I have reviewed the book "The Bible Code" by M. Drosnin
1. The book states codes were found in Genesis by Doron Witztum
and Eliyahu Rips. An experiment using scientific protocols specified
by independent reviewers provided strong statistical evidence of
Jewish sages' names and birth & death dates encoded in the
Hebrew text of Genesis. This is all true.
2. The statement that Torah codes can predict future events is
unfounded. There is no scientific or mathematical basis for
such a statement. Some historical events are encoded in
Genesis in certain configurations, it is not true that similar
configuration of "encoded" words represent a potential
historical event. Mr. Drosnin states his "prediction" of Prime
Minister Rabin assasination is "proof" that "Bible Code" can
be used to predict future. A single or several “successful"
predictions prove nothing unless made and evaluated under
controlled conditions.
3. I conclude the ONLY information derived from codes in
Genesis is that THEY EXIST and the probability to be
mere coincidence is vanishingly small."
Harold Gans, June 3, 1997
http://www.despatch.cth.com.au/Articles_V/Torah_Extracts.htm
4. The Bible Code, Michael Drosnin, Weidenfeld &
Nicolson, 1997
always superior to anyone else, being a gift
to mankind, I raise my unenlightened voice
to say what Bible Code claims mean to me,
the smallest bookworm that has ever been:
Such a code confirms the spiritual assertion
the Energy forming the universe is conscious,
intelligent, well-meaning and life-sustaining -
all examples of time-spanning non-sensory
communication such as these Bible Codes
Enlarge the spectrum of possibilities posited
by quantum physics, it is a joy to the thinking,
dreaming, feeling mind to find ever-widening
spirals of alternatives to the little bit of world
confirmed painstakingly by human scientists
As long as we remain free to study anything
the imagination can envision without bending
to the authority of science and religion alike,
without forcing anybody to pay homage to
us, the way science and religion compel
People to subscribe to their subjective theories;
we shall be all-right, as long as we reject claims
of other people’s non-sensory experience and
only believe in what we individually live and feel,
we shall become independent thinkers - and
Dream up a separate world for each one of us,
unique, subjective and individual; no-one allowed
to proselytise – only to sing their own song while
followers are simply told to go find or make their
own way…
A scientist can only find proof of something, the
public is free to ascribe meaning to it; nobody
should be compelled to agree with anyone else,
everybody is free to make up their own story
and live it
As long as they respect the right of their
neighbours to do the same…
http://www.despatch.cth.com.au/Articles_V/Torah_Extracts.htm
Public Statement by Harold Gans, Senior Cryptologic
Mathematician, U.S. Department of defense, retired
Independent Mathematical Consultant:
“I have reviewed the book "The Bible Code" by M. Drosnin
1. The book states codes were found in Genesis by Doron Witztum
and Eliyahu Rips. An experiment using scientific protocols specified
by independent reviewers provided strong statistical evidence of
Jewish sages' names and birth & death dates encoded in the
Hebrew text of Genesis. This is all true.
2. The statement that Torah codes can predict future events is
unfounded. There is no scientific or mathematical basis for
such a statement. Some historical events are encoded in
Genesis in certain configurations, it is not true that similar
configuration of "encoded" words represent a potential
historical event. Mr. Drosnin states his "prediction" of Prime
Minister Rabin assasination is "proof" that "Bible Code" can
be used to predict future. A single or several “successful"
predictions prove nothing unless made and evaluated under
controlled conditions.
3. I conclude the ONLY information derived from codes in
Genesis is that THEY EXIST and the probability to be
mere coincidence is vanishingly small."
Harold Gans, June 3, 1997
http://www.despatch.cth.com.au/Articles_V/Torah_Extracts.htm
4. The Bible Code, Michael Drosnin, Weidenfeld &
Nicolson, 1997
Literary Masterpiece
Rocked up at work, all confused,
we discussed books we loved as
kids, Hanlie reminiscences about
Bible and Vicky Villard Stories - I
recall a garage stacked with book-
club detective novels, hands killing
victims by giving them a fright in the
night, she read comic books at school
We got gargantuan amounts of photo-
books from grandma De Lange while
grandma Alice subscribed to Reader’s
Digest, we read Shangri-La and Beau
Geste so condensed - they lacked all
fire and spice, only an outline left, then
I tried tackling a document, International
Warrant of Arrest - my mind wandering
Listening to an André Rieu DVD playing
because cold silence punctuated by the
tapping of keyboards is a symbol of the
end of all life; with Carmen and Zorba on
my earphones engaging my heart, I shall
try again to relay the quaint legalese of
the warrant of arrest, a literary masterpiece
we discussed books we loved as
kids, Hanlie reminiscences about
Bible and Vicky Villard Stories - I
recall a garage stacked with book-
club detective novels, hands killing
victims by giving them a fright in the
night, she read comic books at school
We got gargantuan amounts of photo-
books from grandma De Lange while
grandma Alice subscribed to Reader’s
Digest, we read Shangri-La and Beau
Geste so condensed - they lacked all
fire and spice, only an outline left, then
I tried tackling a document, International
Warrant of Arrest - my mind wandering
Listening to an André Rieu DVD playing
because cold silence punctuated by the
tapping of keyboards is a symbol of the
end of all life; with Carmen and Zorba on
my earphones engaging my heart, I shall
try again to relay the quaint legalese of
the warrant of arrest, a literary masterpiece
Wednesday, March 21, 2012
Infinite Being
The Bible Code by Michael Drosnin - read
it before - it is pure joy, started at the back
with Chapter Notes - p. 185 - because it's
difficult to focus on explanations when
a great book ends
The Bible Code mentions a fifth dimension
and Alan Guth, physicist, confirms it exists
though only defined in paradox: being smaller
than the atom’s nucleus, yet containing
the whole universe
We live in a five-dimensional world: 3 of
space, a 4th of time and a 5th of all things
spiritual – what mysterious ideas - just
the thing to awaken a dream on the
possibility of infinite being…
The Bible Code, Michael Drosnin, Weidenfeld &
Nicolson, 1997 ---- pp 185 and 196
it before - it is pure joy, started at the back
with Chapter Notes - p. 185 - because it's
difficult to focus on explanations when
a great book ends
The Bible Code mentions a fifth dimension
and Alan Guth, physicist, confirms it exists
though only defined in paradox: being smaller
than the atom’s nucleus, yet containing
the whole universe
We live in a five-dimensional world: 3 of
space, a 4th of time and a 5th of all things
spiritual – what mysterious ideas - just
the thing to awaken a dream on the
possibility of infinite being…
The Bible Code, Michael Drosnin, Weidenfeld &
Nicolson, 1997 ---- pp 185 and 196
Musical Spirit – Wednesday 21 March 2012
I finished reading ‘Get a Life Without the Strife’ by Fred
and Florence Littauer and instead of jumping straight into
The Bible Code by Michael Drosnin as was the plan, I
redid Tim LaHaye’s temperament chart and combined
the result with the personality type questionnaires in the
Littauer’s book; and I am very gratified by the results
For some strange reason – maybe because my focus was
on my studies while my friends focused on their social lives -
I used to seem a choleric and sanguine person when doing
these questionnaires at university, but now that experience
has tested my mettle, I prove to be tolerant – a phlegmatic
trait - and melancholic - arts and music is my life
I am not very sanguine, an invariably cheerful attitude at
work is a mask to hide my fluctuating emotions; and I have
no choleric traits – no desire to take charge of others - well,
that’s a relief, I thought my life a disaster for not meeting
expectations - at school I lived my mother’s life – sang
and played piano for her, but after leaving home
I found though it was great to sing in choirs because I adore
music, I dislike mingling with the people involved; I love songs
but cannot perform for others; at school performance was for
and with my mother, without her I am an a-social melancholic
person; prefer being behind the scenes, love writing,
dreaming and singing on my own - music as is
Shocked to discover on taking a translation job that rhythm and
sound of language meant nothing, only the meaning and rules
of grammar counted at all; it is incomprehensible why music
should be the love of my life yet I cannot master it so as to
make it my source of income - luckily the job of official
translator for the Department of Arts and Culture
Offers enough opportunity to listen to the music made by the
various languages which provide the lyrics for songs, giving
me the chance to sing along – thus it is enough to keep
my musical spirit resonating until I might master
the art of poetry…
and Florence Littauer and instead of jumping straight into
The Bible Code by Michael Drosnin as was the plan, I
redid Tim LaHaye’s temperament chart and combined
the result with the personality type questionnaires in the
Littauer’s book; and I am very gratified by the results
For some strange reason – maybe because my focus was
on my studies while my friends focused on their social lives -
I used to seem a choleric and sanguine person when doing
these questionnaires at university, but now that experience
has tested my mettle, I prove to be tolerant – a phlegmatic
trait - and melancholic - arts and music is my life
I am not very sanguine, an invariably cheerful attitude at
work is a mask to hide my fluctuating emotions; and I have
no choleric traits – no desire to take charge of others - well,
that’s a relief, I thought my life a disaster for not meeting
expectations - at school I lived my mother’s life – sang
and played piano for her, but after leaving home
I found though it was great to sing in choirs because I adore
music, I dislike mingling with the people involved; I love songs
but cannot perform for others; at school performance was for
and with my mother, without her I am an a-social melancholic
person; prefer being behind the scenes, love writing,
dreaming and singing on my own - music as is
Shocked to discover on taking a translation job that rhythm and
sound of language meant nothing, only the meaning and rules
of grammar counted at all; it is incomprehensible why music
should be the love of my life yet I cannot master it so as to
make it my source of income - luckily the job of official
translator for the Department of Arts and Culture
Offers enough opportunity to listen to the music made by the
various languages which provide the lyrics for songs, giving
me the chance to sing along – thus it is enough to keep
my musical spirit resonating until I might master
the art of poetry…
Tuesday, March 20, 2012
The Gift & Deep Inside
The gift I deem most important is the gift of
trust; the most precious crown adorned with
priceless gems, only bestowed when I know
someone well, see consistent behaviour and
integrity - their invariable kindness, courtesy
and consideration create faith in their ability
to be true to their word, worthy of absolute
confidence; thus I swear my allegiance and
loyalty, faithful affection and friendship in ex-
change; although I offer love unconditionally
to the wonderful world; my trust only goes to
the special people who take my hand and
never let go…
Deep Inside
Painful, your emotional shock
on discovering a relationship
lost, affability enabled survival,
all the time you helped me to
overcome my problems with
wise words of advice and kind-
ness while I remained oblivious
of what was taking place
in your life
Thank you for never leaving my
sight as your boat capsized, wish
I could restore your happiness and
faith, yet your still tackling every
obstacle with such determination
augers well for a wonderful future,
I am so proud of all you have done
in passing through the storm that
made you seem
Bitter and hard - though your heart
remained soft deep inside!
trust; the most precious crown adorned with
priceless gems, only bestowed when I know
someone well, see consistent behaviour and
integrity - their invariable kindness, courtesy
and consideration create faith in their ability
to be true to their word, worthy of absolute
confidence; thus I swear my allegiance and
loyalty, faithful affection and friendship in ex-
change; although I offer love unconditionally
to the wonderful world; my trust only goes to
the special people who take my hand and
never let go…
Deep Inside
Painful, your emotional shock
on discovering a relationship
lost, affability enabled survival,
all the time you helped me to
overcome my problems with
wise words of advice and kind-
ness while I remained oblivious
of what was taking place
in your life
Thank you for never leaving my
sight as your boat capsized, wish
I could restore your happiness and
faith, yet your still tackling every
obstacle with such determination
augers well for a wonderful future,
I am so proud of all you have done
in passing through the storm that
made you seem
Bitter and hard - though your heart
remained soft deep inside!
Diary Tuesday 20 March 2012
The heat was bad, we did not receive enough rain, so I
promised myself I would love autumn and winter this
year. Yet now that the cold is in the air I am filled with
such a nagging sadness and feeling of longing – I am so
untrue to myself, can’t keep the focus on the advantages
of cool while overpowered by a feeling of loss and lament.
The sadness is in the air, around me, all over, in the weather
now how do I change the sadness to an inner feeling that I can
conquer and reject? How does one describe such an absolutely
irrational, stupid feeling? Why does it exist? I’m a town dweller,
weather should mean little - except for gardening. Why should it
feel so awful and why don’t I have control of this?
Autumn
promised myself I would love autumn and winter this
year. Yet now that the cold is in the air I am filled with
such a nagging sadness and feeling of longing – I am so
untrue to myself, can’t keep the focus on the advantages
of cool while overpowered by a feeling of loss and lament.
The sadness is in the air, around me, all over, in the weather
now how do I change the sadness to an inner feeling that I can
conquer and reject? How does one describe such an absolutely
irrational, stupid feeling? Why does it exist? I’m a town dweller,
weather should mean little - except for gardening. Why should it
feel so awful and why don’t I have control of this?
Autumn
Monday, March 19, 2012
Glamorous, Sophisticated
What a mess - what a terrible mess - trial and
error is awful, I should have guessed; grey - I
HATE grey, unless tinted blue, black and grey
in bed linen are insupportable - to combat the
effect I constructed a bulwarks of pink-purple
covered notebooks on my side of the bed
I shall hide the black and grey pillowcase tonight,
already covered my favourite pillow with something
else, grey sucks colour out of everything - I wear
black to disappear but my bed should be HERE;
this is awful, one of my biggest mistakes – still,
we were constrained, nothing else in the shop
I hate shopping in any case, my new T-shirt too large,
the glamorous, sophisticated black and grey without
symbolical meaning, I fight it with the pink and green
of my paper doll - how did I ever acquiesce to some-
thing as bleak and menacing as this – oh yes, there
was nothing else, I should hang myself!
error is awful, I should have guessed; grey - I
HATE grey, unless tinted blue, black and grey
in bed linen are insupportable - to combat the
effect I constructed a bulwarks of pink-purple
covered notebooks on my side of the bed
I shall hide the black and grey pillowcase tonight,
already covered my favourite pillow with something
else, grey sucks colour out of everything - I wear
black to disappear but my bed should be HERE;
this is awful, one of my biggest mistakes – still,
we were constrained, nothing else in the shop
I hate shopping in any case, my new T-shirt too large,
the glamorous, sophisticated black and grey without
symbolical meaning, I fight it with the pink and green
of my paper doll - how did I ever acquiesce to some-
thing as bleak and menacing as this – oh yes, there
was nothing else, I should hang myself!
More Exalted Cause
Finally succumbing to intolerance and allergy
symptoms, eyes completely out of focus, neck
muscles tightening then collapsing, sitting here
in sheer torture, no wonder I resonate well with
the suffering of martyrs, no surprise I want to
link it to a more exalted cause
Feeling this bad for something trivial is useless,
given I’m supposed to translate The Troll Inter-
pol’s messages regarding criminals defrauding
each other, killing and maiming one another –
honest men seldom get involved as they have
nothing to begin with -
Cheeks burning, ears aching, brain shrinking in
depression; constructive pain should teach me
never to eat fatty food again - spirituals kindly
declare with ascetic mouths - begging next
to a rice bowl the only future for me; only
rice has a negative effect also
Maybe feeding on yak-butter tea as Tibetan
Monk might have been an option if only
my system could process fatty stuff...
symptoms, eyes completely out of focus, neck
muscles tightening then collapsing, sitting here
in sheer torture, no wonder I resonate well with
the suffering of martyrs, no surprise I want to
link it to a more exalted cause
Feeling this bad for something trivial is useless,
given I’m supposed to translate The Troll Inter-
pol’s messages regarding criminals defrauding
each other, killing and maiming one another –
honest men seldom get involved as they have
nothing to begin with -
Cheeks burning, ears aching, brain shrinking in
depression; constructive pain should teach me
never to eat fatty food again - spirituals kindly
declare with ascetic mouths - begging next
to a rice bowl the only future for me; only
rice has a negative effect also
Maybe feeding on yak-butter tea as Tibetan
Monk might have been an option if only
my system could process fatty stuff...
Being Human
Day dragging on, sluggish system slowing due
to cheese grillers with which Sunday dinner was
enlivened, not even the psychology of buying a
little doll to accompany me through the woes of
assembly line translations proves very helpful
My guru dancing while chanting: Just be glad, just
be glad, just be glad to be alive - idiot; we all need
neuropeptide Y, a brain chemical that makes people
feel healthy - found in alcohol, scientists think NPY
pills could reduce consumption of alcohol
Are they mad, how absolutely boring and unromantic,
imagine replacing the words of Red, Red Wine with
White, White Antidepressants - popping pills instead
of staggering about while watching the heroine leave
with another man - scientists have no understanding
Of the aesthetics when the suffering hero is scorned
and the audience’s unbounded sympathy with his at-
tempts to obliterate his pain with wine or another
alcoholic concoction – this is what being human
is all about!
Saturday, March 17, 2012
This Is Why
The elder of a pair of twins - my lil sis suddenly
called - Please open the gate, I’m waiting outside;
I went out, there she was on a BIG motorbike, she
explained taxman said we tax your business unless
you spend - she and life partner bought BIG motor-
bikes, riding to Hotel Formula One
Overwhelmed, never knew she and Pete - Petrus in
local parlance - had to fight taxman to keep enterprise
going; she bought an enormous scooter - 650 CC and
Pete bought a 1 050 CC - they drove off to Musina; the
back of the beyond where large trucks pass on their way
to far-off Zimbabwe and Mozambique
My lil sis drove till they tackled the mountains where she
was too tired to continue; Pete stopped, someone else
drove the rest of the way; she picked up by car; they
arrived safely - she has fun with her paintings, pool
and most important, taking care of Mom and Dad –
her mind is occupied - though
She feels smothered by too much well-being, a strange
concept to her - I wonder whether she understands –
this is why I hang on to hubby - myself?
called - Please open the gate, I’m waiting outside;
I went out, there she was on a BIG motorbike, she
explained taxman said we tax your business unless
you spend - she and life partner bought BIG motor-
bikes, riding to Hotel Formula One
Overwhelmed, never knew she and Pete - Petrus in
local parlance - had to fight taxman to keep enterprise
going; she bought an enormous scooter - 650 CC and
Pete bought a 1 050 CC - they drove off to Musina; the
back of the beyond where large trucks pass on their way
to far-off Zimbabwe and Mozambique
My lil sis drove till they tackled the mountains where she
was too tired to continue; Pete stopped, someone else
drove the rest of the way; she picked up by car; they
arrived safely - she has fun with her paintings, pool
and most important, taking care of Mom and Dad –
her mind is occupied - though
She feels smothered by too much well-being, a strange
concept to her - I wonder whether she understands –
this is why I hang on to hubby - myself?
One Ideal Appeals
Finished Tim LaHaye’s Why You Act The
Way You Do, deeply impressed with the
way he inveighs against temperaments,
explaining the melancholy as a sinful,
selfpitying martyr who can only over-
come by giving unconditional love
Smiling when the focused choleric stomps
on their dreams and sets their ideals alight
with the fire of their unquenchable ire, true
faith changes believers into wonderful dogs
and I have no canine attributes, being more
like a cat - of leopard persuasion
The melancholy’s focus on self is indication of
sin leading to eternal damnation; so be it, none
of those spiritual gifts La Haye states as general
possession of every Christian has manifested in
this melancholic’s life - to smile when taking an
emotional beating from the unfeeling only a mask
The way LaHaye blithely believes every problem
can be fixed by being faithful and good does not
seem to be reflected in the world we live in and
this is clearly our very own fault for being so un-
believing, quantum physics must be right, a
huge dose of devotion changes the world
Tim LaHaye created a special niche for him, his
wife and Ministry, wonderful testimony, admirable
integrity, I wonder why my attempts to increase in
holiness never led to such dizzying heights, only
one ideal still appeals: the quest for wisdom, to
understand the why, wherefore and how…
Why You Act The Way You Do – Tim LaHaye,
Tyndale House Publishers, Living Books
edition, 1984
Way You Do, deeply impressed with the
way he inveighs against temperaments,
explaining the melancholy as a sinful,
selfpitying martyr who can only over-
come by giving unconditional love
Smiling when the focused choleric stomps
on their dreams and sets their ideals alight
with the fire of their unquenchable ire, true
faith changes believers into wonderful dogs
and I have no canine attributes, being more
like a cat - of leopard persuasion
The melancholy’s focus on self is indication of
sin leading to eternal damnation; so be it, none
of those spiritual gifts La Haye states as general
possession of every Christian has manifested in
this melancholic’s life - to smile when taking an
emotional beating from the unfeeling only a mask
The way LaHaye blithely believes every problem
can be fixed by being faithful and good does not
seem to be reflected in the world we live in and
this is clearly our very own fault for being so un-
believing, quantum physics must be right, a
huge dose of devotion changes the world
Tim LaHaye created a special niche for him, his
wife and Ministry, wonderful testimony, admirable
integrity, I wonder why my attempts to increase in
holiness never led to such dizzying heights, only
one ideal still appeals: the quest for wisdom, to
understand the why, wherefore and how…
Why You Act The Way You Do – Tim LaHaye,
Tyndale House Publishers, Living Books
edition, 1984
Friday, March 16, 2012
Live with myself
Suddenly meaning fell into one of the black holes
in my mind, suddenly numbers had no meaning
and I thought 11:30 meant 12:30 and ran from
the office, ready for my free afternoon – just to
discover it was still an hour before I could go
Slinked back, not much chastised though, actually
quite glad for evidence to substantiate my claim
time is sucked into a black hole in my mind from
time to time, my colleagues did not even blink
confronted with my antics
Great to work with them, other people like me are
scary - I am scary too; I feel safe among those who
are normal, although it is difficult to fit in, only at
home I practice my accents and burst into song
by now I know it is never done
By anyone claiming to be a sane human being, except
by well-paid artists and true eccentrics; as I am none
of these, just a government official – have mercy on
my poor victims and most important, pity me - who
have to live with myself!
in my mind, suddenly numbers had no meaning
and I thought 11:30 meant 12:30 and ran from
the office, ready for my free afternoon – just to
discover it was still an hour before I could go
Slinked back, not much chastised though, actually
quite glad for evidence to substantiate my claim
time is sucked into a black hole in my mind from
time to time, my colleagues did not even blink
confronted with my antics
Great to work with them, other people like me are
scary - I am scary too; I feel safe among those who
are normal, although it is difficult to fit in, only at
home I practice my accents and burst into song
by now I know it is never done
By anyone claiming to be a sane human being, except
by well-paid artists and true eccentrics; as I am none
of these, just a government official – have mercy on
my poor victims and most important, pity me - who
have to live with myself!
Dress-Up Mary (Revised)
It is amazing, why does a fairy doll bought at an
exorbitant price with transparent wings bring me
no joy; the psychology is incredible – her face too
small, she looks like a miniature version of a real
human being and kindles no spark in my heart
Two cheap dolls with round faces, big eyes and
sweet little mouths bring me that joy, they live
next to my bed – I can explain it – childish and
cuddly, my paper doll is so delightful, she goes
on trips with me
The fairy doll looks cold, remote, an alien from
another planet; I dress her in silver to give her
appeal but she does nothing – only the cheap
doll resembling a bee and Dress-Up Mary, the
golden-haired paper doll, do that easily
[ORIGINAL:]
Psychology is most amazing, the fairy doll with
transparent wings, bought at an exorbitant price
brings me no joy, her face is too small, she looks
like a miniature version of a fully grown woman
and kindles no spark in my heart
My two cheap dolls with round faces, big eyes and
sweet little mouths bring me so much joy, they live
next to my bed – how can one explain it - they are
childish and cuddly, my paper doll so delightful,
she goes on trips with me
The fairy doll looks cold and remote, an alien from
another planet, I dressed her in silver to give her
appeal - but she does nothing for me - only the
cheap doll resembling a bee and the golden-
haired paper doll Dress-Up Mary
Make me feel different - the cold fairy has no
influence at all – unless it is to make me feel
even more alienated…
exorbitant price with transparent wings bring me
no joy; the psychology is incredible – her face too
small, she looks like a miniature version of a real
human being and kindles no spark in my heart
Two cheap dolls with round faces, big eyes and
sweet little mouths bring me that joy, they live
next to my bed – I can explain it – childish and
cuddly, my paper doll is so delightful, she goes
on trips with me
The fairy doll looks cold, remote, an alien from
another planet; I dress her in silver to give her
appeal but she does nothing – only the cheap
doll resembling a bee and Dress-Up Mary, the
golden-haired paper doll, do that easily
[ORIGINAL:]
Psychology is most amazing, the fairy doll with
transparent wings, bought at an exorbitant price
brings me no joy, her face is too small, she looks
like a miniature version of a fully grown woman
and kindles no spark in my heart
My two cheap dolls with round faces, big eyes and
sweet little mouths bring me so much joy, they live
next to my bed – how can one explain it - they are
childish and cuddly, my paper doll so delightful,
she goes on trips with me
The fairy doll looks cold and remote, an alien from
another planet, I dressed her in silver to give her
appeal - but she does nothing for me - only the
cheap doll resembling a bee and the golden-
haired paper doll Dress-Up Mary
Make me feel different - the cold fairy has no
influence at all – unless it is to make me feel
even more alienated…
Thursday, March 15, 2012
A Phosphor Glow
Raining after a prolonged dry spell, I am so delighted
I sit in the cold outside after irritating everybody by
singing rain songs for joy; I am desperate, desperate,
desperate about my clothes, cannot stand another day
of black and grey, made an illegal foray into my son’s
cupboard after he strictly forbade me to take anything
I cannot go on without variety in clothes, took a striped
white shirt to be worn tomorrow, I feel so glad about
this crime, this sin, this abomination; life is wonderful,
the more rules proliferate, the more chance we have
to break them and this feels so good, the light outside
seems like inner illumination, a phosphor glow
In the emerald grass, the pool in turquoise…
I sit in the cold outside after irritating everybody by
singing rain songs for joy; I am desperate, desperate,
desperate about my clothes, cannot stand another day
of black and grey, made an illegal foray into my son’s
cupboard after he strictly forbade me to take anything
I cannot go on without variety in clothes, took a striped
white shirt to be worn tomorrow, I feel so glad about
this crime, this sin, this abomination; life is wonderful,
the more rules proliferate, the more chance we have
to break them and this feels so good, the light outside
seems like inner illumination, a phosphor glow
In the emerald grass, the pool in turquoise…
Web of Meanings
Caught in a web of meanings
sentences singing, lines swinging
nuances begging analysis, dreaming
into sonorous worlds of tonoscopes
languages mixing in a sinuous dance
of expression intertwined with cultural
attitude, a typical comportment, the
clipped English of a Bowlerised Sherlock
Holmes and the guttural sexy tones of an
inspector Jacques Clouseau, I am trying
to detect the origin of misunderstandings
in my translation, the text did not sing, you
see, it is not singing now - or is it?
“Investigation of the
management of quarries
the ownership of which
reverted to the state
revealed the existence of
errors involving secret
illegal concessions
violating the legal regulations
which specifically require
that the transactions
should be done
at auction“
« Il ressort des vérifications
sur la gestion des carrières
dont la propriété revenait à l'état
l'existence d’erreurs portant
sur la concession
prohibée occulte
contrairement aux
règlementations légales
qui exigent en particulier
la mise en enchères
de l’opération »
sentences singing, lines swinging
nuances begging analysis, dreaming
into sonorous worlds of tonoscopes
languages mixing in a sinuous dance
of expression intertwined with cultural
attitude, a typical comportment, the
clipped English of a Bowlerised Sherlock
Holmes and the guttural sexy tones of an
inspector Jacques Clouseau, I am trying
to detect the origin of misunderstandings
in my translation, the text did not sing, you
see, it is not singing now - or is it?
“Investigation of the
management of quarries
the ownership of which
reverted to the state
revealed the existence of
errors involving secret
illegal concessions
violating the legal regulations
which specifically require
that the transactions
should be done
at auction“
« Il ressort des vérifications
sur la gestion des carrières
dont la propriété revenait à l'état
l'existence d’erreurs portant
sur la concession
prohibée occulte
contrairement aux
règlementations légales
qui exigent en particulier
la mise en enchères
de l’opération »
Scintillating Humour & Ice-cold Refusal
French class is cancelled, I remain stuck in my
little space, faced with administration, Tim LaHaye
is ready to tell me about temperament and marital
presence, the last thing I want to hear today, a forced
break have me enjoying phrases by Terry Pratchett
like a gourmet enjoying culinary delights
The cool spearmint of Pratchett’s scintillating humour
makes the heavy meals of Cataclysmic Egyptian events
more palatable while I’m spicing my Bibliotherapy with
the mixed chocolate and strawberry ices provided by
the temperament theories of Tim LaHaye
“Igneous had always found the general denial more
reliable than the specific refutation” – and I am even
more amused by “If you want to be successful in the
criminal world, you need a reputation for honesty”
Ohmygoodness, this is wisdom indeed, I love it!
Feet of Clay - Terry Pratchett – Victor Gollancz, 1996
p. 81
Ice-cold Refusal
Act of God Graham Phillips - a very academic
account, the first 200 pages are bone dry but
I forged on, set on reaching wonderful theories
about cataclysm & history, nearly did not make
it, getting buried under a dearth of facts, names,
funerary rites, conventional Egyptology
Ice-cold refusal to consider Graham Hancock
theories about pyramid age determined by
precipitation marks - all irrelevant, I'm only
guided by a need for the enthusiasm of the
inspired researcher but the first 200 pages
fail to touch the reader
After suffocating in a desert of words, names,
facts and conjectures, the author promises to
prove that the Egyptian events were the effect
of ancient cataclysms, I hope to reach this part
of the academic dissertation before losing my
mind in boring reams of facts
It’s clear why maverick Zechariah Sitchin
is so much more interesting to read, especially
when one has no use for the ancient lore
in designing a dreamy life...
Act of God - Graham Phillips, Pan Books, 1988
Tuesday, March 13, 2012
Mysterious And Mythical
Found a new book in the library - Act of God
a story of cataclysm, Tutankhamun as well as
Atlantis in which detective Graham Phllips un-
covers extraordinary events – thank heaven,
a mysterious Egyptian tomb, just what I need
to add oomph to my quiet existence
I live my life in my head, when reading material
becomes scarce I am in dire straits; a discovery
to give meaning to my days on earth which seem
to be such a useless material illusion; only third
thoughts & inner narrative imperative create new
lines combining historical events
In symbolical significance, being devoted to all
things spiritual, I am delighted by everything
mysterious and mythical
Act of God – Tutankhamun, Moses & The
Myth of Atlantis - The True Story of The
Greatest Cataclysm to shape Civilisation
By Graham Phillips, Pan Books, 1998
a story of cataclysm, Tutankhamun as well as
Atlantis in which detective Graham Phllips un-
covers extraordinary events – thank heaven,
a mysterious Egyptian tomb, just what I need
to add oomph to my quiet existence
I live my life in my head, when reading material
becomes scarce I am in dire straits; a discovery
to give meaning to my days on earth which seem
to be such a useless material illusion; only third
thoughts & inner narrative imperative create new
lines combining historical events
In symbolical significance, being devoted to all
things spiritual, I am delighted by everything
mysterious and mythical
Act of God – Tutankhamun, Moses & The
Myth of Atlantis - The True Story of The
Greatest Cataclysm to shape Civilisation
By Graham Phillips, Pan Books, 1998
Memo To Myself
Memo to myself – reread “Bible Code” by Michael Drosnin
and here comes the hot flush caused by the caramel sauce
in a tin I thought would be a great restorative elixir for vital
energy to face this day, convincing myself allergy symptom
is a good way of getting creative, how can I know this is not
so, every time I grow deeply depressed due to neurological
dysfunction I do my best to do my work which I cannot do in
a good mood because then I want to dance and sing - think
of new dreams and meditate on wonderful future visions…
13 March 2012
and here comes the hot flush caused by the caramel sauce
in a tin I thought would be a great restorative elixir for vital
energy to face this day, convincing myself allergy symptom
is a good way of getting creative, how can I know this is not
so, every time I grow deeply depressed due to neurological
dysfunction I do my best to do my work which I cannot do in
a good mood because then I want to dance and sing - think
of new dreams and meditate on wonderful future visions…
13 March 2012
Monday, March 12, 2012
Together Forever (Revised)
To launch this day the right frequency surrounded by
voices pertains – a promise by Dr Habibu and Mama
Maria offering Great Expectations, a service to Remove
Black Spot In Your Hands Tat [sic] Keeps Taking Your
Money – credibly the best offer I’ve had, it would be
fabulous to stop a black hole in my hands siphoning
money from my always in the red credit card!
Lyall Watson explains electromagnetic fields, amazing
feat of dowsing two-dimensional maps, Tim LaHaye
wants readers to define a prison – sing the Lord’s song
in a strange land, we don’t have rivers like Babylon –
the open-plan office is not prison, more an escape from
the heat outside, my jail is created by an allergy
wrapping my head in electric cable
Makes my brain a sponge instead of substance empty
holes – information keeps falling away, more lost than
money siphoned off through the dark spot in my hands;
Terry Pratchett has a horse-doctor treating the Patrician
inquiring whether Lord Vetinari’s eating his bedding &
instructing Corporal Littlebottom to hold his nose and
pour a draught down his throat twice a day –
And I have to translate an Interpol message about a
traveller using fake ID who must be traced – but where
does my spirit want to be, where are the fragments of my
soul spread, how can I gather them all together and
become whole? Behind all these I cherish the sweet
dream of him and her finding each other in an eternal
moment being together forever…
voices pertains – a promise by Dr Habibu and Mama
Maria offering Great Expectations, a service to Remove
Black Spot In Your Hands Tat [sic] Keeps Taking Your
Money – credibly the best offer I’ve had, it would be
fabulous to stop a black hole in my hands siphoning
money from my always in the red credit card!
Lyall Watson explains electromagnetic fields, amazing
feat of dowsing two-dimensional maps, Tim LaHaye
wants readers to define a prison – sing the Lord’s song
in a strange land, we don’t have rivers like Babylon –
the open-plan office is not prison, more an escape from
the heat outside, my jail is created by an allergy
wrapping my head in electric cable
Makes my brain a sponge instead of substance empty
holes – information keeps falling away, more lost than
money siphoned off through the dark spot in my hands;
Terry Pratchett has a horse-doctor treating the Patrician
inquiring whether Lord Vetinari’s eating his bedding &
instructing Corporal Littlebottom to hold his nose and
pour a draught down his throat twice a day –
And I have to translate an Interpol message about a
traveller using fake ID who must be traced – but where
does my spirit want to be, where are the fragments of my
soul spread, how can I gather them all together and
become whole? Behind all these I cherish the sweet
dream of him and her finding each other in an eternal
moment being together forever…
Life-Threatening Stilettos
I always think I am ready to face insomniac nights
until one strikes, it transpires that nothing inspires,
no energy to tackle a good book, TV shows seem
juvenile, my sense of humour gone, Ballando Con
Le Stelle is a culture shock for any follower of the
BBC’s Strictly Come Dancing
The Italian show abounds with long, thin insect leg
people, the host cast in a crushing hip-hugging black
corset with life-threatening stilettos resembling a stick-
like ninja knight, she must be young but her heavily
made-up eyes make her seem middle-aged, her
voice flowing in an incessant stream
Aggressive in typical flat-vowel Italian, no fricatives
to make it soothing, it is unnerving; Baroque interior
in red is overwhelming; the men seem perfect to play
Captain Hook in Peter Pan - tall female contestants
stiffly balanced on extra-high heels distorting the
body’s proportions in a salt-pillar stance
A female judge wearing only one super-large earring
looks unbalanced; all over the show is awe-inspiring,
all gestures exaggerated; all short, ugly, overweight
people have obviously been shot – what a strange,
intimidating show!
Continuing My Quest
This is my desire for today: to feel appreciation for ANY
process that works. Clearly the process of calling all that
impedes progress “SIN” and “SINFUL” does NOT work for
me – that “remedy” is not my thing, but it is successful for
many blessed beings who find joy in Ministry and Church
and services to the community. Good For Them, I applaud
their well-being while continuing my quest to find
my own thing.
"Is this pill or process really effective?" ANYTHING causing
you to allow your desire becomes a process of coming into
alignment - we're not validating or invalidating anything.
Many offer their own remedy as being the one that works;
good for all of them. We applaud anything that assists
someone in ALLOWING the Well-being to flow.”
Abraham-Hicks
I like reading the success stories of people of integrity, not
much interested in those who succeeded in obtaining power,
wealth, acclaim or fame, but in those who conquered the
self through self-discipline and living with integrity, being
true to their promises and consistent in their lives.
“Feel appreciation for those who provide examples of Well-
being. How would you know that prosperity was possible if
there wasn't some evidence of prosperity around you?
It's all part of this contrast that helps you to sharpen
your desire.”
Abraham-Hicks
I happily accept this spiritual assumption:
“You are magnificent beings in the perfect place at the
perfect time, unfolding perfectly, NEVER getting it done,
NEVER getting it wrong. Be more PLAYFUL about all of it.
Today, no matter where I'm going or what I’m doing and
who I'm doing it with, it is my dominant intent to look for
what I want to see, find thoughts, words and actions that
feel good. I am practicing the art of allowing all my desires.”
Abraham-Hicks
http://www.abraham-hicks.com
process that works. Clearly the process of calling all that
impedes progress “SIN” and “SINFUL” does NOT work for
me – that “remedy” is not my thing, but it is successful for
many blessed beings who find joy in Ministry and Church
and services to the community. Good For Them, I applaud
their well-being while continuing my quest to find
my own thing.
"Is this pill or process really effective?" ANYTHING causing
you to allow your desire becomes a process of coming into
alignment - we're not validating or invalidating anything.
Many offer their own remedy as being the one that works;
good for all of them. We applaud anything that assists
someone in ALLOWING the Well-being to flow.”
Abraham-Hicks
I like reading the success stories of people of integrity, not
much interested in those who succeeded in obtaining power,
wealth, acclaim or fame, but in those who conquered the
self through self-discipline and living with integrity, being
true to their promises and consistent in their lives.
“Feel appreciation for those who provide examples of Well-
being. How would you know that prosperity was possible if
there wasn't some evidence of prosperity around you?
It's all part of this contrast that helps you to sharpen
your desire.”
Abraham-Hicks
I happily accept this spiritual assumption:
“You are magnificent beings in the perfect place at the
perfect time, unfolding perfectly, NEVER getting it done,
NEVER getting it wrong. Be more PLAYFUL about all of it.
Today, no matter where I'm going or what I’m doing and
who I'm doing it with, it is my dominant intent to look for
what I want to see, find thoughts, words and actions that
feel good. I am practicing the art of allowing all my desires.”
Abraham-Hicks
http://www.abraham-hicks.com
Our Own Discoveries
In lofty circles of great believers
Miracle Plays, Jesus dying, Paul
singing praise songs in jail; those
without gift of faith cannot exceed
Their limitations, though admiring
the strengthening effect of faith
on integrity - not experiencing
the effect themselves
Faith an ideal, we admire people
who accomplish big things, read
and dream about these - writing
poems afterwards, sharing
Lack of spiritual gifts, content in
discovering reality provides little
evidence of things we admire-
wonderful, we feel the same
We help each other uncover the
fallacies and accept ideals can’t
be realised in our universe - a
few content with dreams only
Making peace with this, others still
furious discovering non-existence
feeling justly cheated because
great expectations of
false illusions had been promoted -
enticement just showed how great
life could have been, now seems
more sordid in comparison
Experience shatters, disappointment
in impossible ideals voiced in pain –
we are strengthened by objecting
to the deceptions
That have been perpetrated - enabling
all to face our own discoveries…
[ORIGINAL:]
My Own Discoveries
In the lofty circles of the great believers, the Miracle
Plays presented for humankind by Jesus Christ and
St Paul singing praise songs in jail - I’m an outsider
who hasn’t received the gift of faith, can’t overcome
her limitations, admires faith’s effect on people with
integrity but have not experienced the effect myself
I admire FAITH as an ideal to strive for – but which I
only desire like a child dreaming of toys or sweets; I
admire people who accomplish big things - yet have
not accomplished much, all I excel in is reading great
books and feeling a glow of contentment, then writing
short pieces about it that sometimes grow into poems
Tim LaHaye says thankfulness is like pushing a large
stone uphill, when one stops concentrating the stone
rolls down and one has to start all over again – there-
fore I am thankful for the allergy; thank you to all who
have also not received faith or elevating spiritual gifts
I feel so much better knowing we share the same fate
Of all the things I admire & see as enchanting ideals
there is very little evidence in reality, the most wonder-
ful thing is that there are others who feel the same and
help me uncover the fallacy; I accept that these ideals
can’t be realised in our reality, content to possess a
gift of dreams, imagination and fantasy - though
I still wish for them occasionally, trying not to be bitter
about the discovery they do not exist – while you are
still angry about the discovery of their non-existence,
you feel cheated and disgusted that false expectation
of these illusions had been promoted in the first place,
enticement showing how great life could have been
Making everything seem more sordid in comparison,
experience of reality shattered these illusions, your
disappointing discovery of false ideals show up in
words which denote extreme vexation, to say the
least – though I still approve that people can
come up with ideals, I feel strengthened by
Your strong objections to the deceptions that have
been perpetrated, it enables me to face my own
discoveries…
Miracle Plays, Jesus dying, Paul
singing praise songs in jail; those
without gift of faith cannot exceed
Their limitations, though admiring
the strengthening effect of faith
on integrity - not experiencing
the effect themselves
Faith an ideal, we admire people
who accomplish big things, read
and dream about these - writing
poems afterwards, sharing
Lack of spiritual gifts, content in
discovering reality provides little
evidence of things we admire-
wonderful, we feel the same
We help each other uncover the
fallacies and accept ideals can’t
be realised in our universe - a
few content with dreams only
Making peace with this, others still
furious discovering non-existence
feeling justly cheated because
great expectations of
false illusions had been promoted -
enticement just showed how great
life could have been, now seems
more sordid in comparison
Experience shatters, disappointment
in impossible ideals voiced in pain –
we are strengthened by objecting
to the deceptions
That have been perpetrated - enabling
all to face our own discoveries…
[ORIGINAL:]
My Own Discoveries
In the lofty circles of the great believers, the Miracle
Plays presented for humankind by Jesus Christ and
St Paul singing praise songs in jail - I’m an outsider
who hasn’t received the gift of faith, can’t overcome
her limitations, admires faith’s effect on people with
integrity but have not experienced the effect myself
I admire FAITH as an ideal to strive for – but which I
only desire like a child dreaming of toys or sweets; I
admire people who accomplish big things - yet have
not accomplished much, all I excel in is reading great
books and feeling a glow of contentment, then writing
short pieces about it that sometimes grow into poems
Tim LaHaye says thankfulness is like pushing a large
stone uphill, when one stops concentrating the stone
rolls down and one has to start all over again – there-
fore I am thankful for the allergy; thank you to all who
have also not received faith or elevating spiritual gifts
I feel so much better knowing we share the same fate
Of all the things I admire & see as enchanting ideals
there is very little evidence in reality, the most wonder-
ful thing is that there are others who feel the same and
help me uncover the fallacy; I accept that these ideals
can’t be realised in our reality, content to possess a
gift of dreams, imagination and fantasy - though
I still wish for them occasionally, trying not to be bitter
about the discovery they do not exist – while you are
still angry about the discovery of their non-existence,
you feel cheated and disgusted that false expectation
of these illusions had been promoted in the first place,
enticement showing how great life could have been
Making everything seem more sordid in comparison,
experience of reality shattered these illusions, your
disappointing discovery of false ideals show up in
words which denote extreme vexation, to say the
least – though I still approve that people can
come up with ideals, I feel strengthened by
Your strong objections to the deceptions that have
been perpetrated, it enables me to face my own
discoveries…
Saturday, March 10, 2012
Impressed by the Edifice
Impressed by the edifice constructed by Tim
LaHaye; distilling the essence of what he says:
dealing with our temperament enables us to
rectify problems with anger and depression;
empowering individuals to take responsibility
for what happens to them
As pastor of a Church he provides community
context within which people can apply their new
gifts, I like the society he depicts where people
find joy in serving each other, the philosophical
question whether God exists, is irrelevant when
those who dream up such ideals
Improve the lives of people who follow their pre-
cepts, an intelligent stream of love creates the
benevolent universe and manifests as thinking
people who inhabit it and can think up religion
and rational self-interest; and who can mould
themselves to represent any Deity
Every individual is free to choose where he wants
to be, a person with integrity lives morally superior
whether as atheist or by following Muslim, Buddhist,
Christian or Hare Krisna systems; one with evil intent
will manage to bend the ethical system of any faith
to suit his own purposes…
Why You Act The Way You Do – Tim LaHaye,
Tyndale House Publishers, Living Books
edition, 1984
LaHaye; distilling the essence of what he says:
dealing with our temperament enables us to
rectify problems with anger and depression;
empowering individuals to take responsibility
for what happens to them
As pastor of a Church he provides community
context within which people can apply their new
gifts, I like the society he depicts where people
find joy in serving each other, the philosophical
question whether God exists, is irrelevant when
those who dream up such ideals
Improve the lives of people who follow their pre-
cepts, an intelligent stream of love creates the
benevolent universe and manifests as thinking
people who inhabit it and can think up religion
and rational self-interest; and who can mould
themselves to represent any Deity
Every individual is free to choose where he wants
to be, a person with integrity lives morally superior
whether as atheist or by following Muslim, Buddhist,
Christian or Hare Krisna systems; one with evil intent
will manage to bend the ethical system of any faith
to suit his own purposes…
Why You Act The Way You Do – Tim LaHaye,
Tyndale House Publishers, Living Books
edition, 1984
Anger Is a Habit
Tim LaHaye is an excellent psychologist,
he devised seven steps for curing anger,
resentment and bitterness:
Recognise anger as harmful and counter-
productive, a problem to be overcome by
achieving the victory
Clearly express anger while repeating the
decision to let go of angry thought-patterns
over and over
Forgive those who caused anger, knowing
you have done, or have the capacity to do
the same or worse
Repeat the procedure when hostile thoughts
return, giving thanks in every case of insult,
rejection and injury
Be thankful for everything as thankfulness
is therapeutic, helps to reduce the flaming
anger and brings positive thoughts
Filled with love for others, including object of
wrath - then you cannot be plagued by anger
and hostility yourself
Anger is a habit of temperament ignited by any
distress or unpleasant conditions; anger can
ruin your mind, health, business
And family life; repeat above formula when-
ever you get angry because doing it only
once cannot help immediately
The formula has to be acquired by carefully
cultivated habit which can then become
second nature
pp 280 - 282
Why You Act The Way You Do – Tim LaHaye,
Tyndale House Publishers, Living
Books edition, 1984
he devised seven steps for curing anger,
resentment and bitterness:
Recognise anger as harmful and counter-
productive, a problem to be overcome by
achieving the victory
Clearly express anger while repeating the
decision to let go of angry thought-patterns
over and over
Forgive those who caused anger, knowing
you have done, or have the capacity to do
the same or worse
Repeat the procedure when hostile thoughts
return, giving thanks in every case of insult,
rejection and injury
Be thankful for everything as thankfulness
is therapeutic, helps to reduce the flaming
anger and brings positive thoughts
Filled with love for others, including object of
wrath - then you cannot be plagued by anger
and hostility yourself
Anger is a habit of temperament ignited by any
distress or unpleasant conditions; anger can
ruin your mind, health, business
And family life; repeat above formula when-
ever you get angry because doing it only
once cannot help immediately
The formula has to be acquired by carefully
cultivated habit which can then become
second nature
pp 280 - 282
Why You Act The Way You Do – Tim LaHaye,
Tyndale House Publishers, Living
Books edition, 1984
Meant To Accept All Assumptions
I admire the great achievements of Christians,
special believers like Tim LaHaye delineating four
temperaments and overcoming them through the
work of the Holy Spirit, I tried to emulate them in
my youth and found to my chagrin I could not
Every fear called a sin simply means being human
the most sinful state of existence, until we can stop
being normal, we are instruments of evil, what a pity
all my attempts at changing into a holier me ended
disastrously, while acknowledging their good results
I admit to being condemned to live my life as I am,
without external infusions - in my defence, I worked
at religion, only gave up when nothing happened,
concluding I was meant to accept all assumptions
and spiritual groups as each other’s equal
This is why exposure to their delights
never had any effect…
“Why You Act The Way You Do” - Tim LaHaye
special believers like Tim LaHaye delineating four
temperaments and overcoming them through the
work of the Holy Spirit, I tried to emulate them in
my youth and found to my chagrin I could not
Every fear called a sin simply means being human
the most sinful state of existence, until we can stop
being normal, we are instruments of evil, what a pity
all my attempts at changing into a holier me ended
disastrously, while acknowledging their good results
I admit to being condemned to live my life as I am,
without external infusions - in my defence, I worked
at religion, only gave up when nothing happened,
concluding I was meant to accept all assumptions
and spiritual groups as each other’s equal
This is why exposure to their delights
never had any effect…
“Why You Act The Way You Do” - Tim LaHaye
Friday, March 9, 2012
Furore In Class
Yesterday I demythologised the concepts of
victim and aggressor, claiming women must
accept responsibility for the reaction they elicit
from men, as my classmates still clamoured
about the poor innocent victims who wear mini-
skirts à la haute couture then endure the un-
wanted attentions of amorous men because
women must be free to express themselves
at the cost of everyone around them, wear
revealing or seductive clothing while men
are demonised for lack of decorum
I insisted women enjoy their power over men
and are accountable for the consequences if
they cannot stop their victims from turning on
them – all shocked in class – I added a lot of
people deserve to be killed, including myself,
we should accept responsibility for providing
provocation to the killer instinct, it is a mercy
we don’t kill each other more often – there
rarely is such a thing as an innocent victim
once people are grown – what a furore in
class, everyone exclaiming in shock
If we continue to put the blame on the people
who are goaded beyond endurance, we shall
be stuck with a dysfunctional society forever –
oh wait, we ARE stuck with it, no reason to
fear anything will change, provocation will
always be called innocent victim and thus
we are assured of the status quo – what
a lovely prospect since society defends
the true culprits and punishes victims,
let us rejoice in nothing changing…
victim and aggressor, claiming women must
accept responsibility for the reaction they elicit
from men, as my classmates still clamoured
about the poor innocent victims who wear mini-
skirts à la haute couture then endure the un-
wanted attentions of amorous men because
women must be free to express themselves
at the cost of everyone around them, wear
revealing or seductive clothing while men
are demonised for lack of decorum
I insisted women enjoy their power over men
and are accountable for the consequences if
they cannot stop their victims from turning on
them – all shocked in class – I added a lot of
people deserve to be killed, including myself,
we should accept responsibility for providing
provocation to the killer instinct, it is a mercy
we don’t kill each other more often – there
rarely is such a thing as an innocent victim
once people are grown – what a furore in
class, everyone exclaiming in shock
If we continue to put the blame on the people
who are goaded beyond endurance, we shall
be stuck with a dysfunctional society forever –
oh wait, we ARE stuck with it, no reason to
fear anything will change, provocation will
always be called innocent victim and thus
we are assured of the status quo – what
a lovely prospect since society defends
the true culprits and punishes victims,
let us rejoice in nothing changing…
Thursday, March 8, 2012
A Weird Little Person (Revised)
A weird little person with a mission to be
extrovertly extravagant – oh, so that’s who
I am! I’m intrigued, I had always thought I
was supposed to be a self-pitying introvert
Yet you see me trying to be a recluse of fate
and divest me of my carefully constructed
illusions; such frank and open honesty, it
delights and amuses –
I always end up with goofballs, men of good
sense don’t waste time talking to me, either
I’m totally ugly or my incomprehensibly
icy stare puts them off –
I may resemble Miss Marple, or worse due
to my masculine self-esteem, Hercule Poirot
with walrus moustaches, I have none on my
face as yet – but what of tomorrow...
extrovertly extravagant – oh, so that’s who
I am! I’m intrigued, I had always thought I
was supposed to be a self-pitying introvert
Yet you see me trying to be a recluse of fate
and divest me of my carefully constructed
illusions; such frank and open honesty, it
delights and amuses –
I always end up with goofballs, men of good
sense don’t waste time talking to me, either
I’m totally ugly or my incomprehensibly
icy stare puts them off –
I may resemble Miss Marple, or worse due
to my masculine self-esteem, Hercule Poirot
with walrus moustaches, I have none on my
face as yet – but what of tomorrow...
Wednesday, March 7, 2012
Preservation (Revised)
Life is a marathon, not a short sprint,
spiritualists teach cold hearts are only
frozen in this universe without room for
high ideals & unconditional love chosen
when humanity dreamed noble ideals
Ice-cold life is preservation, has frozen
resolve to stay ethically true to dreams;
almost no amount of heat can melt
feelings frosted within us when we
were small
But joy is ice-covered only, underneath
is warmth & love, we’re NOT made of
stone, by retaining an icy state we can
strive to live with integrity, try to be
true to our words
Though frozen we’ve the best intentions
which shall be realised at a future date –
in existence of a different sphere
[ORIGINAL:]
Ice-Cold Preservation
I see life as a marathon, not a short sprint,
spirituals teach cold hearts are only frozen
in this universe without room for the high
ideals and unconditional love chosen when
humanity dreamed of noble ideals
Being ice-cold is preservation, life requires
an ice-cold resolve to remain true to ideals
and dreams; almost no amount of heat can
melt the feelings frosted within us
when we were small
But our joy is only frozen, underneath all is
warmth and love, we are NOT made of stone,
by remaining in the frozen state we can strive
to live with integrity, trying to be true
to our words
Though frozen, we have the best of intentions
which shall be realised at a future date - in
a different sphere of existence
Tuesday, March 6, 2012
Undercover People
I used to wonder why you took such delight in trying
to diminish the grand, majestic and most high, the
sacred and holy and exalted? You who are sold on
being romantic while I have been described as not
romantic at all – my personality analysis said I’m
very down-to-earth when it comes to love and the
simplest pleasures bring the greatest joy and my
partner is my best friend – I value friendship
above romance…
You are an undercover ROMANTIC and I am an under-
cover CYNIC! I love romance as an ideal, not to be ful-
filled, but to be strived for – while you actually believe
romance exists – this is the difference between us.
You reject the Bible on the grounds that nothing in there
is verified and literally true; you are deeply disappointed
– while I love the Bible on the grounds that it represents
a dream and a lot of mystery plays like they enacted in
the Middle Ages.
I am not disappointed at all that it is not literally true and
has been changed through the ages and am quite content
with it representing an IDEAL, a DREAM of mankind – even
if that dream is not exactly exalted, it represents a striving
for exaltation – while you are deeply hurt by your discovery
that the highly exalted does not exist.
It is because you are an idealistic romantic that you became
so cynical, and it is because I am a true cynic, that I cannot
become cynical by discovery of decadence and deprivation –
I am so impressed by mankind’s undiminished striving for
improvement and I appreciate every little step taken to create
better dreams.
I started life expecting NOTHING, so every little dream and
ideal I find seems delightful to me. You started life expecting
EVERYTHING, exaltation and masterful perfection, and so
everything you find is a disappointment to you and you
clutch your disappointment to your heart in order to
remain true to your first impressions of life.
I am luckier than you because I cannot become cynical no
matter what evidence of decadence is brought to me, while
you cannot become trustful, hopeful and delighted no matter
what evidence of exaltation is brought to you – it will always
fall short of your first ideals. How do you like my analysis?
1. Imagination is stronger than knowledge, period – imagination
brought the world into existence and all knowledge is just a
record of what the imagination accomplished.
2. Dreams are more powerful than facts because dreams brought
the human technological society into existence while facts only
knew of the animal world and man as just another animal.
3. Hope always triumphs over experience, that is why Helen Keller,
blind and deaf, accomplished so much – and why the dark Middle
Ages passed and mankind is not caught in torture and human
sacrifice any more. There is no intrinsic good or evil, we only
classify things into those categories according to our needs
and limited perspective.
4. Laughter ALSO cures the common cold – it has cured mine so
many times, I cannot count how often, and laughter causes the
release of dopamine and other positive hormones in the brain
and improves blood tests and after a year of laughter, illness
can be cured; laughter cures cancer – and cures grief also.
5. Love is stronger than death – of course, that is why we love old
masters of any art; we love history, the past and love ourselves –
we are death happening, you know. I can love even when death
in the sense of the event never having happened, is present; I
can love non-physical memories, ideas and thoughts which
have never lived and therefore have never been anything
else than dead. I still love my grandma and she has
already died 14 years ago. And I shall die one day
and prove love is stronger than death.
Based on a conversation with a correspondent who replied
the following words by Robert Fulghum:
“I believe: that myth is more potent than history - that dreams
are more powerful than facts - that hope always triumphs over
experience - that laughter is the only cure for grief. And I believe
that love is stronger than death.”
- Robert Fulghum - All I Really Need to Know I Learned in Kindergarten -
to diminish the grand, majestic and most high, the
sacred and holy and exalted? You who are sold on
being romantic while I have been described as not
romantic at all – my personality analysis said I’m
very down-to-earth when it comes to love and the
simplest pleasures bring the greatest joy and my
partner is my best friend – I value friendship
above romance…
You are an undercover ROMANTIC and I am an under-
cover CYNIC! I love romance as an ideal, not to be ful-
filled, but to be strived for – while you actually believe
romance exists – this is the difference between us.
You reject the Bible on the grounds that nothing in there
is verified and literally true; you are deeply disappointed
– while I love the Bible on the grounds that it represents
a dream and a lot of mystery plays like they enacted in
the Middle Ages.
I am not disappointed at all that it is not literally true and
has been changed through the ages and am quite content
with it representing an IDEAL, a DREAM of mankind – even
if that dream is not exactly exalted, it represents a striving
for exaltation – while you are deeply hurt by your discovery
that the highly exalted does not exist.
It is because you are an idealistic romantic that you became
so cynical, and it is because I am a true cynic, that I cannot
become cynical by discovery of decadence and deprivation –
I am so impressed by mankind’s undiminished striving for
improvement and I appreciate every little step taken to create
better dreams.
I started life expecting NOTHING, so every little dream and
ideal I find seems delightful to me. You started life expecting
EVERYTHING, exaltation and masterful perfection, and so
everything you find is a disappointment to you and you
clutch your disappointment to your heart in order to
remain true to your first impressions of life.
I am luckier than you because I cannot become cynical no
matter what evidence of decadence is brought to me, while
you cannot become trustful, hopeful and delighted no matter
what evidence of exaltation is brought to you – it will always
fall short of your first ideals. How do you like my analysis?
1. Imagination is stronger than knowledge, period – imagination
brought the world into existence and all knowledge is just a
record of what the imagination accomplished.
2. Dreams are more powerful than facts because dreams brought
the human technological society into existence while facts only
knew of the animal world and man as just another animal.
3. Hope always triumphs over experience, that is why Helen Keller,
blind and deaf, accomplished so much – and why the dark Middle
Ages passed and mankind is not caught in torture and human
sacrifice any more. There is no intrinsic good or evil, we only
classify things into those categories according to our needs
and limited perspective.
4. Laughter ALSO cures the common cold – it has cured mine so
many times, I cannot count how often, and laughter causes the
release of dopamine and other positive hormones in the brain
and improves blood tests and after a year of laughter, illness
can be cured; laughter cures cancer – and cures grief also.
5. Love is stronger than death – of course, that is why we love old
masters of any art; we love history, the past and love ourselves –
we are death happening, you know. I can love even when death
in the sense of the event never having happened, is present; I
can love non-physical memories, ideas and thoughts which
have never lived and therefore have never been anything
else than dead. I still love my grandma and she has
already died 14 years ago. And I shall die one day
and prove love is stronger than death.
Based on a conversation with a correspondent who replied
the following words by Robert Fulghum:
“I believe: that myth is more potent than history - that dreams
are more powerful than facts - that hope always triumphs over
experience - that laughter is the only cure for grief. And I believe
that love is stronger than death.”
- Robert Fulghum - All I Really Need to Know I Learned in Kindergarten -
Happiest Creature
Take criticism from whom it comes
if the people who criticize you are
not people you look up to, their
words should not disturb you
I accept my personality do not please
people I deal with - keep my ideas to
myself, started a new regime of self-
discipline, bury spontaneity
No more writing about my feelings, seek
substitute outlets, I believe in a better
realm than this faulty human one
which is so unsatisfactory
Withdrawing and living life in my head
I make life nice, when the process is
complete and I live in my head, I
am the happiest creature
Glühwürmchen-Idyll
Glühwürmchen – I used to sing along when I was
very small, could not make out the words of this
song, sounded like bumbuschim to me - later sang
happily Shine, little glow-worm, glimmer - then
heard the original song sung in German again -
looked it up on the Internet, found the absolutely
enchanting Glühwürmchen, Glühwürmchen
flimmre, flimmre, Glühwürmchen,
Glühwürmchen, schimmre,
schimmre
Führe uns auf rechten Wegen, führe uns dem Glück
Entgegen, Gib uns schützend dein Geleit zur Liebes-
seligkeit – wonderful, though life is not happy, all
hope in vain given all outcomes; ideals remain en-
chanting, good enough for me, every time I fail in
communication I find my joy in sounds, in songs
warming my icy heart frozen by human contact,
dreams warm me again and inner light shines
sweetly for consciousness continuously
evolving for all eternity
And I repeat my delightful mantra - driving those
who can’t stand my noisy passage, so laid back in
flip-flops and baggy tops, production nearly non-
existent, reading Agatha Christie, fantasising being
the killer revealed by Hercule Poirot – insane - I
just sing my mantra over and over: Glühwürmchen,
Glühwürmchen, flimmre, flimmre, Glühwürm-
chen, Glühwürmchen, schimmre, schimmre,
führe uns auf rechten Wegen, führe uns
dem Glück entgegen
Gib uns schützend dein Geleit – zur
Liebesseligkeit…
[Tr. Lilla Cayley Robinson]
When the night falls silently on forests dreaming,
Lovers wander forth to see the bright stars gleaming;
And lest they should lose their way the glow-worms
nightly light their tiny lanterns gay and twinkle brightly,
here and there, and ev'rywhere from mossy dell and
hollow, floating, gliding through the air they call on
us to follow - shine, little glow-worm, glimmer, lead
us lest too far we wander, love's sweet voice is
calling yonder, light the path below, above
and lead us on to love
Glühwürmchen-Idyll
Melodie - Refrain - aus der Operette Lysistrata
von Paul Lincke, 1902 / MIDI: Bruno Alt
Wenn die Nacht sich niedersenkt auf Flur und
Halde, Manch ein Liebespärchen lenkt den Schritt
zum Walde. Doch man kann im Wald zu zwein
sich leicht verirren, Deshalb, wie Laternen klein,
Glühwürmchen schwirren und es weiset Steg und
Busch uns leuchtend ihr Gefunkel, Da tauchts
auf, und dort, husch, husch, sobald der
Abend dunkel: Glühwürmchen, Glühwürmchen,
flimmre, flimmre, Glühwürmchen, Glühwürmchen
schimmre schimmre, Führe uns auf rechten Wegen,
führe uns dem Glück entgegen, Gib uns schützend
dein Geleit zur Liebesseligkeit
Sunday, March 4, 2012
Transcend
The cosmos, including humans, consists of
superimposed waves in various frequencies
forming beats by peaking together in regular
sequence of rhythmic patterns
Human life is a dance governed by patterned
rhythms, directed by the sun’s electromagnetic
fields of radiation, which are determined by
the planets' configurations
Everything on earth consists of cosmic energy -
pattern pictures in series, all things in existence
are electromagnetic phenomena formed by
these patterns of waves frequencies
In a universe of effervescence, liquid water forms
ice crystal regions in remembrance of its frozen
existence, fragile water directs all forms of life
by means of chemical reactions
Chaos is free, uses paths formed by patterns to
create unique directions for life to transcend
the present in unheard-of new innovations…
Lyall Watson “Supernature” pp.1-100
Saturday, March 3, 2012
Gossamer Ballets
Read Horror High, Killer Instinct, on the bus –
every prejudice linked to teenage years, young
people forced to experience their own characters
revealed; arrived at the hotel, corporate bootcamp
blindfold driving of a quadbike, most enjoyable, wish
I could do it again!
First night’s dinner spent with Vivid Verse, ‘I Like Mice’
and ‘Hans’ Old Mill’ Five Eyes, all looked for poems
remembered from early youth, back in my room I
read Ordeal by Innocence - Agatha Christie - a
Dr Calgary expecting to bring mixed delight to
the family Argyle revealing son’s innocence
But causing a furore - the real murderer now facing
exposure, too bored to carry on, switched to Tim La
Haye ‘Why You Act The Way You Do’ - four basic
temperaments – bright blue, purple and yellow bags
in my room declare me sanguine, yet shortcomings
in making small talk
Vacillating between highs and lows, denote a melancholic
disposition, my conclusion is every specific situation and
unique context evoke a different aspect of temperament…
The next day listening to speeches lightened by reading
Lyall Watson – Supernature – the heroine Periplaneta
Cockroach enters the scene, coldly beheaded by sur-
gical instrument, a hormone produced in the head of
a legless specimen strapped to her back, carried
through artificial connection to
Her headless legs makes her dance to a circadian
rhythm, castanets clicking, scientific curiosity leads to
a second legless protagonist connected to our heroine also,
the influx of new directions causes deadly confusion, Dame
Periplaneta develops acute stress symptoms, malignant
tumours and dies – what a horrible script
Leading to the conclusion: cockroach circadian rhythm
confusion is a deadly killer – a great suspense mystery
à la Agatha Christie...
Lyall Watson says life’s time-keeping devices rock to an
ancient beat tuned to the rhythmic rotation of our beloved
planet earth while the sun, giant cosmic strobe light, turns
off and on – what an amazing dance this is - light and
dark alternation provides information on the planet’s
axis rotation originating communication
By means of varying amounts of light and dark fluctuating
on a daily basis, all lifeforms conscious of planet’s progress,
life dancing to the rhythm of the symphony of the planets and
stars in the sky - to create gossamer ballets
Last meeting, Pratchett’s Soul Music at the ready, imitating
Death’s granddaughter, vanishing without going anywhere,
reading head held high…
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