Fear Closed My Mind

Time passes, these painful moments
will also be left behind, the pain
in my mind will be stilled, the
pressure in my heart will lift

I shall sit still, bring my thoughts
home, find the safe place in the heart
of the storm where beauty and peace await
feelings and emotions will settle down

I shall be happy again, when your anger
is spent, when self-justification looses
its hold, when conditions are set, we
shall carry on, doing the best we can

Attempting to achieve our goals quietly
but first I have to cry, let the tears flow
in unfettered self-pity for all that I have
done wrong

First unload fear, the awful feeling that
I am overcome by a wave of destructive
rejection, suffocating in despair
I looked for a friend

And found none, it is my own fault, fear
closed my mind to the perception of
goodness in life…