Share My Experience

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Goodbye to today, nothing worked
everything turned out flat and grey
like the sky, menacing, tried to wake
up, overcome myself, staring at pic-
tures of Pavlova, all encouragement
sounds like threats, dreaming seems
menacing, leaden weights filling my
head and ears, I am weighed down
ready to sink under the sea

A stiff hood tightening around my head
back and neck - how do people keep
working when they feel like this or don’t
others share my experience, the bottom
falling out of my world, muscle spasms
adding to the whole Spiel – the superb
advantage of feeling this bad is that I
shall appreciate feeling well so much
more than before

Most people don’t know the elation of
feeling well because such attacks of
pain teach the sufferer to take indes-
cribable pleasure from existence
when the pain abates…
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