Spiritual Musings [REV.]

I need to travel in time to surcease my brother Attila
the Hun’s suffering through the strife of mom as the
Queen of Hearts and dad as Conan the Barbarian; to
give him a better life, prevent the bitterness showing
upon his lips and ruining him; to guarantee his smile

Only problem is - how does one travel in time to just
the place where this universe splits; should I go back
to stop Mother teaming up with Conan thus Attila not 
born: but what about my brothers Peter Pan and Tom
Thumb, and my twin sister - the haughty Duchess

And what about me, Alice in Wonderland - who’d I be
with other genes or if the Queen of Hearts never read
Lewis Carroll to me when I was small or if I didn’t read
Agatha Christie; what if this equation did not contain
Conan, who would my eldest brother be - would he

Become the strong, happy brother I admired when
we were kids; but who would “we” be with another set
of parents? Given these questions, I’m glad that time-
travel is not possible - going back means I’ll be left in
another reality without family, without references and

Even if Attila looks bitter, maybe his soul or spirit is all
the more improved, maybe he came to earth to learn
spiritual lessons which could only be taught by being
an hysterical Queen of Hearts first-born & son of an
aggressive Conan who formed a terrible bond which

Still strikes fear to my heart; maybe Grandma Alice
needed to be the Cinderella who never went to the
ball as she made it possible for us to go decked out
in clothes she sewed; led by her selfless example a
gifted Queen of Hearts suffered in her own attempt

To grow spiritually…