Painful In An Indescribable Way

Finally feel better again, made my peace with failing,
failed to master the long policy documents, could not
use my brain to retain the terms to be used & acronyms,
the descriptions and requirements

I cannot – everywhere we read we are not allowed to
say cannot and when we are forced to use it after failing
something, it is painful in an indescribable way, usually
I lose my self-esteem – yes, it is

A translator’s duty to master every kind of document and
I am guilty of treason in admitting I cannot do it, but trying
to hide my incompetence is even more painful so out with
the truth, my brain cannot be used to translate

Certain documents, I shall go on trying and breaking my
heart because that is why we are paid, I shall do my best
without crying, it is no use and will not increase my IQ

4 April 2013