Going To Run Away (Revised)

I’m going to run away, even if I have to take myself alone,

I cannot stay and face the life I chose for me; this life is too

much and I cannot master it, the tasks are too difficult –

I did not master in dam-building, in either French or English;

the dam proved too much, a gigantic downfall –

if I were Lucifer, this is the point where I would be flung from

heaven because I cannot build a dam; and I never managed to

read the text in a way that made sense.

Going to run away, failed yet another subject seriously, this dam

-building is too much, I’m going to run away from the Poverty

Reduction Strategy Plan with cows, farms, roads and credits

driving me nuts, the endless tables, statistics in a continuous

stream, it  makes me want to scream; I’m going to run away - I

chose this yoke myself, to become a bureaucrat, translating for

the client who said he needs the dam and Strategy Plan

And off I go again – French class became a threat, research is

what they want also, research on countries to create new tableaux –

I’ll have to run away – the Great Escape – it’s what I need, my brain

burnt out, I’m an error myself – I must run away…

12 March 2013